SO MY LIFE REFLECTS / PLEASE HEAR THIS.: February 2024

Songs, For Souls, *Series by Claudia Humphrey MUSIC (pages 1-32) Request separate syllabi: “The Missionary,” (pages 33-51) ”The Indigence,” (pages 52-90) “The Text Index,” (pages 90-114) “The *Minstrel,” (pages 115-131)” “The Drama,” (pages132-143), Re: “Songs, For Souls, and the Syllabus(s) (pages52-63) single page edits “The Missionary,” and “The Indigence,”© 2009, Claudia Humphrey, MUST BE NOTIFIED of all uses, in recordings and films, which, are revenue producing. To obtain permission or to obtain edits and two sided revisions, AVOID ALL DUPLICATIONS BY LAW COPYRIGHT PROTECTION E- Mail, bishop_here@yahoo.com ~Preface ~ Words and music composed by Claudia Humphrey since 1976© are combined in this 4th **edition of mission related work since 1991, For blessing you, with the love For Jesus. Songs for Souls was introduced at: Glendale College, Glendale, Ca., 1979. Recital debut 1979, Churches. General Conference Session. Dallas, Texas, 1980. Oakwood College, Huntsville, Al. 1984. Churches, in Southern California Conference, *and Area Assemblies, Since 1976, and this book is represented on the radio program “Today’s Hope, Tomorrow’s Peace,” KFMM, and KFSG, 1977. This book has a review presented by composer- Evangelist Claudia Humphrey, At Glendale College, Glendale, Claudia, A Cal State, Los Angeles, Scholarship recipient, also possesses a lengthy resume of solo work. ** ( write e-mail for edition information) A black and white copy ___y ____n color only ___y ____n Seek after General Conference other revisions or editions on same format above. About the author: Claudia Humphrey was selected to sing for the world view of Executive Director (International division) of the Metropolitan Opera, Rise Stevens in 1983, in, New York City, New York. Claudia has a Master’s Certificate of Choral Conducting from Cal State University at Los Angeles, (having led choirs prior to the studies at the university.) She studied in Adventist Schools 14 years, besides her other academia, which reflect, study of piano, voice, guitar, flute, and violin, interspersed with many composed lyrics. Claudia Possesses Certificates, and license Ordained ministry, since 2001, and Claudia has strived for the master in divinity since 1991 working in evangelism with Pastors: Lorenzo Paytee, Paul Mickelson, James Brougher, Frank Brougher, Floyd Lawson, Jack Dabner, and Bill Stillfield, these being principle effectual ministers to sponsor her ministerial view. In 1991, the John Carter report was brought to the shrine auditorium and then to United Community Church. The Sunday division had been worshipping at the Glendale City, Seventh-day Adventist Church. Paul Mickelson,” The World’s Finest Organist”, asked Claudia Humphrey to sing for the efforts on Sabbath and Sunday, thereby making it possible to become Ordained Elder, at the John Carter report, and later, Ordained Minister, the principle Ordained men, named above, were responsible for her call to the work done in associated churches of the Southern California Conference and neighboring church efforts of Christian orientation to the Gospel of Jesus Christ. ~ Preface ~ (continued, completed). B Missionary’s License THIS IS TO CERTIFY BISHOP CLAUDIA ANN GOODWIN- HUMPHREY (MUSIC MINISTRIES AND SOLO WORK) HAS GIVEN EVIDENCE OF GOD.S CALL INTO THE GOSPEL MINISTRY AND HAS LICENSED TO PREACH THE GOSPEL AS OPPORTUNITIES ARISE AND TO EXERCISE THIS GIFT OF MINISTRY THROUGH THE MINISTERIAL ASSOCIATION URBAN AFFAIRS DIVISION OF ECONOMIC WARFARE BY VALLEJO DRIVE, CHRIST THE SHEPEHRD, FIRST BAPTIST, TRINITY LUTHERAN, UNITED COMMUNITY (CHURCHES) ATCITIES: GLENDALE, PASADENA, ALTADENA (AN EMPHASIS OF CHRISTIAN DOCTRINE S.D.A.) ON THESPRINGDAY OF____THIS SEASON_____ 1995 BEGAN THIS DEACON ___CLERK WITNESS: William Bessner Russell Litchfield Joseph Chu ROOM AT THE TOP (SUPPORTIVE EVIDENCE) ROOM ALONE non-profit status Ein 30-0472260 TABLE OF CONTENTS ( order of book) 1. Lord you talk to me 2. Let love be in my songs 3. Your sins are forgiven 4. He is mighty 5. Matt. 11:28 6. Beautiful Jesus 7. I’m His Father, He’s my son 8. Here we are together 9. By the grace of God 10. Count it all joy 11. Lord, Lord don’t bury me in this land 12. These are the avenues 13. Visions and dreams 14. More value than sparrows 15. Don’t Praise me 16. Sound the Trumpet 17. Then faith came 18. Take one more step 19. Nurturing faith 20. Are you contented 21. You made your decision 22. Today’s hope, Tomorrow’s Peace 23. Lost forever are my sins 24. Come back to this backslidden heart 25. Expect a miracle 26. Tempted 27. I’m a child in his eye 28. God and the plucking man 29. I can’t wait 30. In Jesus Name 31. So my life reflects 32. Water my garden. 33 to 51 “ The Missionary” D Table of Contents Alpha numeric ARE YOU CONTENTED 20 BEAUTIFUL, JESUS 6 BY THE GRACE OF GOD 9 COMEBACK TO THIS BACKSLIDDEN HEART 24 COUNT IT ALL JOY 10 DON’T PRAISE ME, PRAISE THE LOR 15 EXPECT A MIRACLE 25 GOD AND THE PLUCKING MAN 28 HE IS MIGHTY 4 HERE WE ARE TOGETHER 8 I CAN’T WAIT 29 I’M A CHILD 27 I’M HIS FATHER, HE’S MY SON 7 IN JESUS’ NAME 30 LET LOVE BE IN MY SONGS 2 LORD, LORD DON’T BURY ME IN THIS LAND 11 LORD YOU TALK TO ME 1 LOST FOREVER ARE MY SINS 23 MATT 11:28 5 MORE VALUE THAN SPARROW’S 14 NURTURING FAITH 19 SO MY LIFE REFLECTS 31 SOUND THE TRUMPET 16 TAKE ONE MORE STEP 18 TEMPTED 26 THEN FAITH CAME 17 THESE ARE THE AVENUES 12 TODAY’S HOPE, TOMORROW’S PEACE 22 YOU MADE YOUR DECISION 21 YOUR SINS ARE FORGIVEN 3 VISIONS AND DREAMS 13 WATER MY GARDEN 32 A, B, C, D, E, Introduction, preface and table of contents. “The Missionary” 33 to 51 “The Indigent” (syllabus, on order bishop_here@yahoo.com) (SEE ALSO TEXT INDEX) E 1 TO 32 SONGS pages INSERT 1 TO 32 MAKE ALLOWANCES FOR SONG ENDINGS WITH CON’T PAGES. AND FOR TWO SIDED COPYING! DEVELOP THE FOLLOWING Task:Insert pages of songs number 1 through 32(32songs with continued pages) THAT ARE ON PDF FILE I.E. ////Before page 33 8 THESE ARE THE AVENUES TO THE SOUL 32 • SONGS FOR CONGREGATIONS • AND SOLOISTS BY CLAUDIA HUMPHREY©1980 • 2008,09, A BOOK OF SONGS WRITTEN • AND REVISED Editions, BY CLAUDIA HUMPHREY • IS NOW: “The Missionary” edition. (^pictured here^) • Claudia performed her own compositions on the radio broadcast “Today’s Hope, Tomorrow Peace,”…Heard throughout southern Arizona and in southern California where it aired for church going people. • Today Claudia is an ordained minister who resides in California. Her songs are written in a variety of styles, contemporary, classical gospel folk and spiritual for the amateur and the professional artists. • Five sets of songs collections are “on order” booklets, Or Lyric sheets. • Copyright ©1976,revised in 1980, again in 2008 “The Art Form”” (the art form sold in the original, hand written notes.) • Contents of this book all rights reserved • Please ask for written permission to use. • Email bishop_here@Yahoo.com • 33 • God is my leader, • The bible is my textbook • People are my friends. • 34 God bless mother the licensed vocational nurse,who wrote the book “The Three sons of Noah”, by Victoria (a Henderson) God bless dad who funded my projects since I first wrote this book, The cosmetologist=Shannon H. Goodwin My special thanks to Jesus Christ, Almighty God and the Holy Spirit, whose suffering, direction and guidance make it possible for me to hope and believe that people would listen to my songs and see why I hope in the resurrection and the life. My thanks to the churches, all of them I have sung in and had a part in their music programs. Thank you teachers who have decided repeatedly to encourage my efforts to complete the academia for excellence required , after the year 2000 classes of music and Physical Ed. kept me in community with others. Thanks to my two dear brothers Shannon D. and Terry L. Goodwin in the years 2000 forward Thank you Jan Paulsen Thank you Larry Caviness Thank you Lorenzo Paytee Thank you Myrna Haines Thank you Rise Stevens Thank you Jack Dabner Thank you Paul Mickelson Thank you Jim and Frank Brougher Thank you Floyd Lawson Thank you John and Esther Govorchin Thank you Pasadena City College Thank you Los Angeles City College and my elementary class at PUA, with Mr. Thorman and Mr. Butherus 34 35 As you begin your journey into the “mission” land, think of your Lord, Our Jesus took his experience of suffering and lessons. I asked myself, how will the Lord use me today. Will I be an eye witness and attest to what I truly see, here, feel taste or touch. When I started my actual mission I was already in the field being offered rides and food by church people. • Table of contents (original) • Your made your decision • Today’s hope tomorrow’s peace • Don’t praise me Praise the Lord • Sound the trumpet • Beautiful Jesus look • Lost forever are my sins • Let love be in my songs • Your sins are forgiven • Comeback to this backslidden heart • Water my garden • So my life reflects • In Jesus name • I can’t wait • God and the plucking man • Lord you talk to me • I’m his father, he’s my son • Matthew 11:28 • He is mighty • Then faith came • Nurturing faith • Are you contented • Take one more step • More value than sparrows • Visions and dreams • These are the avenues • Lord, lord don’t bury me • Count it all joy • Here we are together • By the grace of God. I can’t tell you what you already know about me • I was raised in the Seventh-day Adventist church environment, 14 years in S.D.A. Schools. • There is no purpose of omission in these commentary pages, for you will find further down the line a willingness to complete more editions and books if the Lord permits, so let’s get on with what I have accumulated in information for This edition and thank you for your patience. • 36 Commentary pages • Surely this cannot be enough “is that all you want…” “will this help…” were the comments. • To see the picture more clearly you must understand your own harvest by those you see everyday. Then attest to those needs as you relate to your own sacrifice, suffering , willingness, or simply of what have you. • A cup of cold water is offered and a blessing is received. But I should not have to tell you go look for a sweaty person dripping with perspiration and ask them if they need water, either to drink or to bathe. • I was walking in the middle of the night in Los Vegas in the 80’s I had no place to stay and I sat in the lounge of a help agency and woke up sometime the next day. I had walked through the Mohave desert, because the *ticket office in “Needles”, Ca., would not sell me a ticket. And that was dearly all I had to get to the next point. What is worse the scanty details in which I describe my story are not fitting for those who crave the colors and nuances of picturing me wandering a long 18 mile walk that is nothing to figure without an vivid imagination. • If someone would have guessed my need and been a missionary, what a difference that would have made! As it turns out the Adventists helped me there and I went on my way to home. • Questions loom up, what were you doing there and why didn’t you plan. • That valid question will come up in other books, at this point the missionary people find themselves in situations sudden and inconvenient, to the rest of society, (especially by the spirit of God), that are beyond the specific points of questions preparation for that, or for a final crisis. • * This is omitted for other stories to come, see also syllabus offered • “The indigent”, sold separately© all rights reserved. • 37 Commentary • The journey gets long for the traveler who is confronted with hunger , bathing needs and necessities. • Confusion sets in as I/ they, try to settle down to their circumstances (“the poor, poor dear!”) • My father( A NOTED LICENSED COSMOTOLOGIST) would say: compassionately, “I don’t know how you do it” he had seen me through the years, though he held no bias to specific constraints I held he looked kindly on.. • You see I have read God’s testimony that a women returns to her father’s home and has right to bread, (this I did not know was available to me through scripture until way past adult living). • But I did not want to be on my parents and begging , yet with talent, skills and education, I could not find a way from this place I was positioned, ( be it tribulation, or trial of my own making ),also came to mind. • Further directions? • Directions are the factor that ads and subtracts revolting developments, these developments are a careful mix of more public more strangers, and more distance. • Think of Hagar, she had no one to ask in her trip in the desert, she sought God and God alone. • I look in retrospect nearly twenty years ago a suit case thrown on the ground and I met no one to whom it belonged. I had no clothes and these fit perfectly, I wouldn’t suggest such a thing! How came this to happen God certainly knew I had nothing and no one was helping me, later I asked the police about situations such as these and they assured me not to worry, since it was out there unclaimed. • Occasionally I would stop by the conference office and Elder Paytee would help me. • How does one make missionary? It doesn’t simply circumstance you will see unfold into the life I found in the travel, and by no means suggest that all or any other would choose this course, Should you wish to become one there are plenty of other opportunities. • 38 Commentary, Yes I was looking for the love I believed was there! • God pitied me, all the way through! I had no one , I couldn’t call, I had no money, I was stuck, I assert that dangerously poor and subject to subversion at all levels, thus tripled with fear, though I knew my own self survey was helpful in prayer. • When I Pasadena California many miles traveled from the Los Vegas experience. • The connection of weekend church solo work singing hoping for leads for work, but dynamics of poverty (for a woman whose station was an executive’s wife) left questions in my mind, of the sanity of others, for in the same breath of their rejecting me, they did not ask themselves why would I turn out a talented skilled person as nothing to offer, or as, going no where? • Questions of the end of time had entered my mind, but the relevancy of my deeds was more real than what was ahead in terms of God’s return. • My heart would cry out, I have talents, I could be put to usefulness, not out here in the King’s highway, I would pray “I don’t know , I am puzzled…” frozen without prayers and hopes, sometimes couldn’t pray or hope, the reality set in. • How this is going to help you, I don’t know, it might prevent you from taking a unadvised turn in your life. • As I stayed longer in the streets it became apparent to me, I was being given a permanent “let-go” from society, though I had been employed in status areas of employment, what could I now use of my experience to help me live? • Long before this guideline was written and circulated I was fulltime agent of poverty. • (*see guideline) • Jesus would help me with the meet at church part, cause there are wars going on(1986 to 2001), and as much as I would love to be drafted (1985-2000)i.e. filling out a draft card., all I could do was submit it and register as a non-commissioned officer. • 39 Commentary how can you say your sins are forgiven • • • • • • What is the point of the story? • Was Claudia a lost soul or always feeling lost? • Or was she given up on , as you reflect on the book, the songs and draw your own conclusions to • What leads up to the missionary, the church upbringing, the ordained life-style then apparent tribulation.( you can say it is self imposed if nothing brought it on.) • Was I to be a non-commissioned officer of my own fate • Was I to be an officer of the church of my area-region with difficulties or similarities • In 1991 the army, navy, air-force and marines all met in the John Carter report area after the shrine auditorium convention. • I was asked to sing with the choice though I knew nothing about the armory in Glendale. • The search against hunger and for shelter stayed with me, I often wondered about the passersby, the comments about why don’t you work, coupled with , we will not hire you. • I would go to the shelters and even sing at their request, but after being buffeted, I lost interest in the tendency for constant rudeness and decided I was better alone, just me and God, so I stayed nearly twenty years off and on in the poor missions and shelter voluntary status, aiding music programs on the weekends Saturdays and Sundays, • Weakened by time , distance, rejection, I stayed a lot in the church steps area with a sleeping bag and clothes for the very next day. • During the week I registered my mail to be received as “artist in residence” at trinity Lutheran Church: God Bless Pastor Floyd Lawson, who encouraged both my singing and my painting. • 40 Commentary I asked to be anointed • I asked to be anointed and the church anointed me. • Paul Mickelson called me every week (for nine years of service) and I took the two day a week assignment for nine years, first on Sabbath and connecting music program Praise work, concerts and recitals on Sundays, where meeting the benevolent society of friends as John and Esther Govorchin and others in the joint choirs , musicals and cantatas were performed. I would ask my children to join me and they did come on “mother’s day” and we sang together, though they had music programs at other churches, both Hillary and Kahlara, sing well. • Today I look to retirement and the fulfillment of music as I know it, with all rights reserved since 1976 , the book , “Songs for Souls”, the recital work is sporatic, the community music classes are social every semester for concert times, while the adjoining members in any area church is not a vigorous practice of most difficult work the standard of music presented has a lot to do with my personal contact through the constant years of church music, • If you should call this gentile poverty, I think it is classified as thus. • Though I record my voice each year on cassette for personal data music ability, growth and understanding of music and the church each presentation… the medium and technology answers to the shelf life and infrastructure of DVD’S and CD”S, since I came from the cassette era in my radio ministry, I have not tried to change the shelf life of my existence. • 41 Commentary presentations • Presentations…. And reference, the cassette seals off time used from the seventies until the point of my death. at one point I OFFERED nine thousand dollars to anyone needing ministry money that has now dwindled down this year 2008 in giving and food bank necessities as we see the shelter and disaster programs mounting with urgent messages for help. Yes help the family, be frugal and yes help others! • The city of God pilot program. Write me: bishop_here@Yahoo.com • To serve American born poor and defend their citizenship by government funds in exchange for work toward what they need, in perpetuity, by the lend lease act of 1941. • This is a missionary project that has been mentioned in writing to • The president of the united states • The governor of California • The house committee • The residential prayer team • The noble peace prize committee • the world headquarters of S.D.A. • The number of others can be request by email bishop_here@Yahoo.com • 42 What should you do? • What I should do is learn of minute men. • The conciliatory spirit of humanitarians. • The willingness to serve those around me. • By quest of obvious needs they express. • By quest of their soliciting my aid. • By asserting actions of voluntary help. • By prayer even fasting. As the Lord Guides. • 43 Commentary I have had fellowship with you • I have had fellowship with you! • 1. At home parent and relatives • 2. At school and colleges • 3. At churches throughout the United States • 4. At the workplace, I brought music programs • 5. At convocations and camp-meetings • 6. At prison systems programs and prayer • 7. Before Los Angles City Commissioner during Mayor Bradley’s Administration • 8. Before the Glendale city Commission regarding Goodwill in the neighborhood. • 9. The street ministry in Old Town Pasadena • 10. The convalescent hospitals in Glendale worship ministry. • 11. Before Mayor’s and Governors banquets and American Negro College funds. • I tell you this, in Jesus, because He has caused me to see what I could do to advance the gospel in what ever state I find myself. • As apostle Paul states: In whatever state I find myself ,:”… therewith, to be content…” • 44 WHAT IS FIELD SERVICE, HEALING AS A DISCIPLE OF CHRIST? ARE YOU NOTHING SPECIAL? Just an instrument, a vessel of the Lord! Now as to time and use, do you choose?: Would you select: it is either you or another recipient to use the tools of the Lord.s healing, the words of comfort and expressions of faith and command. You will personally need to know the biblical steps, if not the specific order, no matter , but among these will be done by the anointing of GOD. *HANDS ON HEALING In THAT= “ Anointing”, these pronouncements as to touching the recipient are from the bible I refer to the KJV bible readings. I set no other version examples. I encourage you to study to find them, (when you search for them, you are “…the workman, that needeth not to be ashamed…”) 1. Lift them up,(THE RECIPIENT) taking them by the hand. 2 Stretch forth your hand. 3 Say “… be thou made clean” or Be made clean. 4 Strictly charge to tell or not to tell of certain healings, certain circumstances. 5 Show thyself to religious leaders, priests, ministers or rabbis. 6. Pronounce, “… thy sins be forgiven…” 7. Say, ”… arise take up thy bed and walk…”. 8. Can fast or lead a fast time. 9. Stand up in the midst where you are healed. 11. Cause them to testify of their healing. 12 Teach, write, publish what you know. 13. Say, “ TALITHA CUMI”. * 14. Affirm the power of God,, affirm the Word of God. 15. Instruct in living. 16. Can feed or lead to a meal,( where there are poor, they need to be led to the food). 17. Bless the Food, Bless the Communion Table. 18. Food Cleanliness and purged, by God, Body and personal Cleanliness, neatness and the practice of no sloth, by example, is a daily vigil, constraints of moral behaviour coupled with the (Levitcal) samples of .i.e., you want to be moral, you want to be pure. Sloth= called “warps”. ( should be a trained person in sanitation, and diplomacy of action. 19., Faith actions, and moves, assurance action, show forth confidence in God and the word. 20. Pray often, laying on hands, as you go. (sometimes quietly unheard or announced). 21. Fingers in ears,(touched ears). 22. Spat, sputum in healing,(references, suggestions and experience, the Christ healing). 23. Touched tongue in healing. 24. In certain cases: Tell no man, give no “sign” remember occurrences and miracles(stated above, which are not heard of today.s healing are matters of faith healings by those ordained by God and the word. HELP MY UNBELIEF, COMMAND DEAF AND DUMB SPIRIT, TAKE BY THEIR HAND AND LIFT UP, DO NOT SCANDALIZE, STAND STILL,( IN QUIETUDE) 25. ”…Be of better comfort arise.” i.e. 26. Pronounce their, (the recipient.s faith), what type of faith. 27. Pronounce the seal of things, end of a chapter in someone.s life or work. The beginning or birth of projects and endeavors, etc. sometimes where there is no apparent growth. Or give a commendation, where others have failed to do so. 28. Cast out evil in the temple, ** Pronounce the forgiveness of sins with authority 29. Call for the righteous angel.s assistance, in preaching and serving.THESE THINGS YOU SHOULD DO AS CHRIST.S DISCIPLE. 45 45 BISHOP_HERE@yAHOO.COM *these are scriptural pronouncement and instances in the new testament,** I pose no ref -erence text for this biographical book and knowledge obtained, nor footnotes for He has guided me There is an appointed time to die, some do not think that illness is an indication of God.s appointment for you to rest, this is also one of interpretation of God.s will in our lives: consider then the meaning of your life and work and the Completion of your tasks on earth, If they are solicited, volunteered or hired. I am on the presidential prayer team The interests that I have are multiple through the leadership role I must play in the church and the community, the Lord calls us to the pulling down of strongholds, both in fellowship of willingness and imposed. For twenty-two years approximately I was homeless off and on status. During that imposed time, I believed in what I was taught as a child, that people do rescue you. You are going to hell! Don.t they rescue you, don.t they rescue the perishing before they go to hell, is not poverty perishing? While I was still young enough and employable over forty, no one did rescue me, to employment or home, I took the opportunity to turn indigent into useful missionary work. During the lengthy street fellowship in the Unity of the Holy Spirit, I spent my time in visitation of many good people in this present world, whose charity I will not forget. There are those too, who were not the example of what I learned was a charitable spirit, but rather just “oust” you or get you out of the way by whatever means. There was also the “pack of lies” gangs on the bus who would try to cause trouble to any unsuspecting person, if particularly you had no designated home life. All the while my dad faithfully watched the outcome of my life, and kept my book so as I would have it to refer to and consequently when he died I decided to redo it on the computer for finished quality. The book of songs expresses what I feel is doctrinally accurate, not only then when I first put it to pen but now it is on a firm spiritual experience. I do believe that Jesus was born, in the flesh, of the Holy Spirit and those things described in the book tell of the Father and the fruits of the spirit in Christianity, since we no longer bear the penalty for sin, our sins are “Lost forever, by his Grace at the Cross. My appointed time, I believe has something to do with the purpose of my life in Christ and a finished work, or duty, the usefulness of what I have in talents and skills , plus the assignment of them at his will( revealed) and my willingness, must be harmoniously developed. 46 Prayers: Prayer lists when we pray The work of binding evil spirits that work against the holy Father and the trinity, that his work be done on earth. Is that we come against evil in the name of Jesus Christ. We encourage the church all over the world The government of our nation Prayer teams of churches. First name basis friends: and many more, maybe the name is similar to those you know! i.e. GENE , ROBERT, MARY , KATE, MONICA, EONA, SALLY, GOERGE, ELAINE , NICK, PATTY, MEGAN, ADRIAN, JEROME, BOB, MARIA, JACK, CANDY, FLORENCE, NATHANIEL, RACHEL, TIMOTHY, BETH, ALL CHILDREN, FRANCIS , JESSIE, SPENCER, SHARON, JOHN, MARSHAN, MARK, RHONDA, TED, TINA, GERMAIN, ADRIANA, TO NAME A FEW . Then there are men and woman at bus stops and on buses not reflected in our Individual church fellowships and service programs: The street ministry on Colorado and De Lacey, in Old Town Pasadena, since 2001, the convalescent ministries of Glen Park and Country villa in Glendale. Unnamed sandwich money handouts, since program started , 2004. PROJECTING OTHER PLANS BECAUSE OF THIS PROGRESS. Coupons, for food giveaways, with pamphlets. Pilot program as ear marked in letters from: bishop_here@Yahoo.com. With all our heart, Includes so many people, And things. The first names of people Are written on “my page so white and fair” Some of the “Common Book of Prayer” notes, have been quoted, as I work, on the street and in convalescent homes. 47 HE IS GUIDING ME Jesus He has guided me safely everyday. This is where I was guided. The reason I can write the third edition in a missionary way is due to his divine intervention and persuasion to yield a harvest of my work since the first book was written, only of music, that time in 1976, and 1977. I called you, from other people.s phones, having none of my own. I wrote you many email letters. I met you at the churches on Sabbath and Sunday always hoping for an announcement or call for me to continue in my work of music, as I would often sing a descant or solo or choir piece, just holding on desperately often quietly. Paul Mickelson(“The World.s Finest Organist”)seemed to grasp my sincerity and would call me to service every week for nine years, the last nine years of his life I worked with him, all programs were recorded. I prepared when no one responded , I worked on the entire anthology of Schirmer.s music for sopranos, so that when people would call I would have sacred work.s ready., this was of course as a student of classics, required literature for recital productions. I compiled all my recorded music performed at UCC services,(united community church= the installation of John carter report was also my installation address as Deacon and later as attending soloist, Ordained Minister). Paul Mickelson was my accompanist and Director. Prayer and endurance in our perseverance, was the key. Allen Andrews Pasadena City College and Russ Litchfield, Organist for Trinity Lutheran Church, were my pianists in Concert Recital with Paul Mickelson, for my Ordained Recital, 2001. I met so many poor Americans, I could not understand this unless it was totally by their choice, this poverty seemed so senseless to me, I being one of them, knew mine was not by choice. The plausibility of raising money through concerts died away due to lack of interest and cohesiveness. But the main works continued. The poor know you will not hire them in rags and bags, no phone, no address, and often no hope. 48 The shelters were presenting another view for there the people were getting rest at night and meals, but , during the day, they were blotted out of the mainstream. To ask for help often is the only way, many can make it through the day or week. Often I was given an offering in my street ministry but under a surveillance type that meant to the crowds not to give an undetermined amount of money, though this was “put it to good use”, many of them knew nothing of my music, my Jesus and my ability for concert or contacts. Are you to save a moment, of the poor??? I would suggest: buy a question and answer pamphlet, about the bible, and insert money for a meal. This saves a poor person.s moment, though you may not save their life or their day, you can save their moment. When Jesus spoke to the multitude, he also fed them. I would also suggest, ask the poor what their favorite text is , for in childhood we all recite verses of God, this helps them to participate, it offers good they can receive and return. My Guidelines, written for the poor, are the things I lived by for many years. I would suggest: Pray often, rise early, find a daily rest for heavy articles, do not encourage strangers to tag along with you. Carry all bas with necessities, toiletries and one sleeping bag all winter. Get on line and email for help. Take courses in Junior College, prefer to sleep alone at night. Don.t worry about the college classes, if you have no goal in mind, you can be involved in community interests., especially if you, like me, have surpassed three or four years of college and university work. Eat at the Lord.s Kitchen, go to church every weekend, there are sometimes vouchers and food. Offer your services of good will in return, help others if you can, discourage bad and vulgar talk, many may still not know you have good capabilities. Get a Post Office Box. Or ask to use and address you can trust, for mailing important things you need.. Ask for help and directions. Apply for government aid if necessary. Sanitize your personal items, don.t be a germ bearer. This guideline was written for one sheet production in 2007 when all my missionary effects were stolen. This is when I began to write the Governor of the State of California. 49 YES, I WAS LOOKING FOR THE LOVE I BELIEVED WAS THERE! Now about the bible Read it! When you are reading a prophets works and do not read the bible, you are not fully instructed. I read by book many chapters at a time. For context of a subject,”… here a little , there a little…” Color and ink it, many times highlighting special places When teaching , I use the lectionary or study guide for pastors for that season. Lesson study plan is good too, but it does not show you have studied “… to show yourself approved…” it is for joint study with others. Also when Quoting for writing songs, God has given me ideas from his word and much of it takes a poetic form. Water my garden for i.e. is about the parable of sewing. Tempted for i.e. is about the temptation of Christ. God and the plucking man is about Christ saying if your eye offends you, cast if away from you: the meaning of unprofitable works. I ask for the meaning of things as I go along with the Lord, perhaps it will bear out in the song. “SHAKEY” Though I know Christ, I could not grasp answers of steady income, the thing that most humans equate” success” with=income. I entered a recovery program for abuse of substances, the one thing our family should be glad to know and there I sat all the week, day after day, between help and job search. I would go to the station at the churches and then to rehearsals ,trace the bus back and forth the two days on the weekends, the 180 bus, and the 181, then the 177, then the 178 then the 183 then the 201. Then the 256, then the 485, then the 264 , these all connected me to church and conference office, back and forth when the John Carter report began. I attended school for career search although I was an honor student at the Glendale College and Cal State LA, I couldn.t scrape money together to complete upper division levels after 1984,( the year of my upward climb in professional music,) some people rebel at this, when obvious talent and scholarship is overlooked.. 50 At night carrying my bags everywhere and learning the mission response as a needy person was the answer for the, “ right now” of it. I say where I was being helped in some areas while being “ played” in other areas, the “star” world interchanged truth for a lie of what we have to do while poor, this is commonly called exploitation, I found that people were no longer interested in my experience because poverty meant to them the everything of my personal worth.. I relied upon the place I must go where others were getting help. There I saw the suffering and I had the same experiences of struggle and “suffrages”, as did they. In 2001 I turned my contemporary program of street music into street ministry and missions, God is so good to me. Through the years Through the years since childhood, we/I would study my bible and prepare my program: Programs for church Introits, meditation music Doxology, praises to god Opening songs, hymns, offertory, interlude music Special music Selected praises Invitational, appeal or call music Songs for repentance Songs of communion Closing hymns and processionals, These, along with the classical music program in progress since early teens, and graduation programs. I directed choirs, and was lead singer for some years of music programs There are also weddings and funerals numerous to perform. Service for friends, relatives and members of churches. There is also the birthday and anniversary list Our composers led us to special programs: BACH BEETHOVAN, VIVALDI, RAVEL, SCHUMANN, SHUBERT, VERDI, BURLEIGH, HUMPHREY, CROSBY, CROACH, BRADBURY, HOOPER, HANCOCK, GAITHER, MICKELSON, HANDEL, RANKIN, NICOLIA, STOKES, STROUT, AKERS, TO MENTION A FEW OF MY FAVORITES. ALL FOR BEAUTY, RIGOR, ENERGY AND INSPIRATION I AM THE BEWARE! LOW JAZZY, NO JAZZY, WHY ALL THE NOT SO HOLY READY TO DANCE MUSIC, DOES NOT PREPARE ME FOR WORSHIP, A TIME AND PLACE FOR GOD, MUCH OF MY KEYBOARD RENDITIONS HAVE THIS SOUND BUT, I SAY TO YOU BE WARE! 51 E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PHOTOS\pic030709_9.jpg Page 52 SYLLABUS: “INDIGENCE,” WORKING AROUND THE CLEARING HOUSE. I used to love being around the house, it was so clean and the detail to “house pretty “was a pleasurable domestic lifestyle. After many years, yes, more than twenty where I was not a domestic housewife and mother, I found myself, again cleaning my area just like I did when I got married. Everything, including baths done in time for sunset. I did not even have to ask if anyone else did it that way, for when I was in my Page 53 • The people I would meet along the street, were of some direction, if you would hear them or the ones on the bus, you would have an idea where they might be going. E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PHOTOS\pic051408_2.jpg • No general invitation is given for going to church when you are camping out. • The long walks I took, because I had no money and feared generally to be beggarly on anyone including my family, was a price I was willing to pay, thus I trusted in God for the outcome of my general life, even when it seemed no one would hire me ever again. • As a house-wife, there is no chit chat, and if you are inclined to go to church during the week, there is no time to be a busy body when worship is over. • After the nineties, some folks would pick me up and cart me off to the churches where programs were being presented. There was no gossip, no playing around, just preparation and performances. Three concerts a year and worship and praise service calls. There was also the business of outreach, in my designated corner, the convalescent hospitals and the street ministry were every weekend. E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PHOTOS\pic072608_1.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PHOTOS\pic050208_3.jpg E:\pic061209_5.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PHOTOS\pic080608_9.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PHOTOS\pic081408_1.jpg “Extreme makeovers”, dictate to us what we should do in the smile we cannot pay for, nor can we expect the safe sleep we can get, without God, we are nothing. Generally, I got by with the singing and obligatoes of minstrel music and Praise music that was popular during the nineties. Using the techniques I learned in College, (having been to a number of them ) I lived it up singing in the best possible way I could, and I felt affirmed again and again, through audiences and the things I heard in the general public as well as at church. You can see me, practicing my: “a ,e, I, o ,u’s”. here, as well as looking intently for the bus or riding on the bus, there is even a picture of me serving in church. E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PHOTOS\pic092408_1.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PHOTOS\pic100508_2.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic042908_2.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PHOTOS\pic081408_2.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic092408_7.jpg Page 54 Sleep gear, clothing with sleeping bag, cleaning and toiletries or solutions for personal grooming. Tape recorder, cell phone (when they got me one), purse, “Carry all “ bag (that the sleeping bag rested on). But all of it not too much to carry a mile in any direction. Don’t forget the H20. E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PHOTOS\pic072508_20.jpg • Violin or other tool or instrument with music. • Advice: • Don’t talk to strangers. Its o.k. we are Christians, but even then when you are subjected to the out doors without a place to go, you learn, not to be glib about your comings and goings. • Find a place to leave your gear during the next day (these are guidelines also printed in the ”The Missionary or in the ”Indigence,” portions, of “Songs, For Souls” book by, Claudia Humphrey ). • Who wants to know more? I sure don’t, I would have thought. • These times don’t give you a choice on what might happen to you, if you have no script and no “Know How”, what do you do? If you are getting ready for Sabbath, Clean up should be done by 3 or 4 Friday afternoon. Remember room check in the Adventist dormitory? Pasted Graphic Page 55 E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic100408_6.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic072908_8[1].JPG Here pictured, in services at the Churches or college concerts with the orchestra, and my violin . Working on the computer at school, In church, or In orchestra at the colleges, then later, relaxing at my room, These are the pictures I would rather you see, then a second hand version of abruptness or unasked for interruption of my doings and renderings, this is not unlike me in what I have offered here in pictures. E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic060208_3.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic092508_4.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic081208_7.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic080608_1.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic071508_36.jpg E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic071308_12.jpg E:\may 26 photo transfers\pic052008_8.jpg • • • • • • Page 56 • When at last, I had time to rest from the labors of camp and missionary tasks, most of which was street visitation and congregational meetings with sinners. I found myself sighing the first and second year, the relief that God had called me to the times of refreshing, began to have meaning the first time in my life. • The work was music and still is, for eternity, the Praise of God and His wonderful works among men. I would sing often in the streets of Pasadena and Glendale, some also in Los Angeles. There no one called me names, they listened as intently as they did in church. • But for the bewildered, occasional listener who did not have God in their life, it was to them a mental problem to be solved if they came across me in my street ministry or singing(as my missionary license says). “ as any opportunity arises.” • Deciding the right picture, working in the computer rooms. What is the them in the song and how art says “Death and hell” and how the picture says poignant stories of life are unfolding in those songs. Page 57 E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic062008_10.jpg E:\memo check 1thru 9 folders\pic060209_2[2].JPG C:\Documents and Settings\NGZ-18\Desktop\pic060209_4.jpg Page 58 E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic071508_26.jpg C:\Documents and Settings\NGZ-18\Desktop\pic060209_5.jpg E:\may 26 photo transfers\pic071508_35.jpg Page 59 E:\BOOK EDIT FOR PRINT JUNE 3, 2009 AND BOOK DISPLAY\PICTURES\pic052209_2.jpg FAITH HOPE CHARITY E:\AUTHOR CLAUDIA see sets of documents june 1 2009\PICTURES\pic081408_11.jpg E:\AUTHOR CLAUDIA see sets of documents june 1 2009\PICTURES\pic072908_11[1].JPG E:\AUTHOR CLAUDIA see sets of documents june 1 2009\PICTURES\pic072908_10.jpg E:\pic060209_4.jpg Page 60 Claudia Ann Goodwin-HumphreyDATE OF BIRTHDATE OF BIRTH Page 61 Relax, take a break! Page 61 Relax take a break Page 62 Sunset has come,my father has died (page ) in the bottom right hand corner you see him in the faded black and white photo at the old“Sharon, “Church in Portland Oregon, when I was just a child. Dad is in the extreme right hand corner, Shannon Howard Goodwin. Directly behind him are the famous “charts”about the prophecies and the emphasis is on the Latter days on earth and what the Christian should expect before the Lord Returns. “…He’s my dad…” V (picture shows the imagined fade out and thoughts) “…He’s my dad…” V (picture shows the imagined fade out and thoughts) She imagines he will say:“allthe hopes, dreams and hard work!” She imagines he will say:“allthe hopes, dreams and hard work!” “Shannon Howard Goodwin noted Cosmetologist, dies”( he did my hair for so many important singing programs.) Pictured here, his shop (center building) and to the right , He, the tenor voice in the old “Sharon Church “quartet in Portland , Oregon. He is one of my favorite people! “Shannon Howard Goodwin noted Cosmetologist, dies”( he did my hair for so many important singing programs.) Pictured here, his shop (center building) and to the right , He, the tenor voice in the old “Sharon Church “quartet in Portland , Oregon. He is one of my favorite people! Page 63 I go to my art work, pastime. The real story about Claudia Humphrey, SYLLABUS:”Indigence”(third person singular) ©ALL RIGHTS RESERVED 2009The real story about Claudia Humphrey, SYLLABUS:”Indigence”(third person singular) ©ALL RIGHTS RESERVED 2009 64 © ALL RIGHTS RESERVED, SYLLABUS, PAGE 64 TO 90, (“SONG, FOR SOULS”) You want the real story about Claudia Humphrey, this told, in the third person singular, all the gory details of rebellion and submission do not precede other youthful graces that God supplied. Most people look for the ending, then, sigh with relief so that they can get through the book. This story is ongoing in terms of her commission and those things you may feel have been omitted are instead unfolding to everlasting details in her ministry which exists today. The rebellion has been a story of learned behavior, from the standpoint of the social psychology of community norms placed upon her from the onset of her parents divorce. Most of the things she learned through God, brought such a difference in action, one would not know where to begin, except to say she was in the fifth grade when she made her first announcement about being a singer. The vanity and vexation of spirit is certainly true, because all attempts proved not to be successes in terms of what she believed were being taught her from qualified experts in music, because the unknown factor is how will things turn out when she tries them? What angle would be best for what she is trying to achieve and, who are most likely the people that take the responsibility for understanding God.s gift in her? She knew God was on her side, for every attempt led to success either in invitation or employment or schooling. Being placed in the venue of the world class DEBUT, meant she would have to have a sponsor world class and an agent, but not one who would question did those things she already achieve, exist, due to academia, that is obvious, along side of news articles, the supportive evidence. Prolonged service for a musician can be in the category of choice of music with the proper leadership to co-sign the participation and performance. Yet one has to suspect That prolonged service would lead to a larger arena, and Claudia, having already sung for the Metropolitan Audition and the General Conference in 1980 meant she had attained and surpassed the longevity of her peers who did not related on those levels. As a minister.s wife, Claudia was imbedded into the radio broadcast,” Today.s Hope, Tomorrow.s Peace”, KFMM and KFSG, later at Oakwood College the “Opera Matinee” broadcast. These artists call, ” Feathers in your caps”. When rebellion took over in the late 80.s Claudia.s debut had already happened and that was all about continuance and station in life. She did not know that the bottom 65 would drop out, there is nothing to go on if There is no information that tells you what could happen if finances are not thereto pick you up, out of a lapse of concert work or introductions to other audiences. All the trouble, all the talk, There were no articles or tabloids. The church was very understanding, “yea” even forgiving, even though most of the Rebellion took place away from church audience and places of worship. Claudia found a place to talk to God about what was happening in her four year gap. Grateful for the forgiveness that she met, she clung to it. In His mercy, she even now reflects what God brought her out of, and putting them to pen or to other.s charge of the information, is very difficult in surveyal of what was really going on. The months of separation from her husband, were when the children, ( the girls, Hillary and Kahlara) were Age 10, and 16. These formative years so vital to their growth, were buffeted by no mother. For example, when Claudia had work she was accused of some wrong doing( which meant fixing her hair on the job), and that job was where she lived 24hours a day and had time to spare then, in fear ,she let her baby girl go to live with in-law, because the employer let her go, after which the employer asked her back, but she had released her daughter by then. Soundness of mind, and body were, what will Claudia do if pressed by her circumstance, can it be agreed upon, what is necessary, and will Claudia follow through with an alternate or other rational plan if the obvious thing to do does not emerge. Hardness of heart, or voice, or look came plenty towards her, as though every answer lay within her to do. Claudia would pray for guidance and help and the outcome was, do what you know, and what has always been expected of you. Employment would not give in and give space to her, in terms of always being homeless, meant always unemployable, but on the stage, Claudia always performed top level and brought to her audience, the deportment and dress required for such an occasion. Was this then a myth that Claudia lived in this world of poverty among excellence? ____________________________________________________________________________ Page 66 Dialogue box: The norms of dress, deportment, classism , education were all supposed to be middleclass American, but in reality they were center American negro. Where the norms of Claudia.s life were set around the minstrel characters of family and stage performances learned through the acceptance of her fellow students, and clergy and church people. The Negro Spiritual had a wide base in the foundation of her training, and many concerts and recitals audiences loved the old traditional music that told the slave stories of the American negro. The stretch of the skin color issues had nothing to do with the performances laid out over the span of 40 years concert work, because from formative years, Claudia was singing at church and other significant places where music was to be heard. Not in order of their appearance: The United Negro college fund Bruno.s restaurant Wilshire Ebell, Theatre Los Angeles Masonic Temple Los Angeles , Steinway hall Opera Debut Portland Am, television Leroy Hurte, Los Angeles Symphony Orchestra Glendale Civic Music Theatre Samuel Evan.s Banquet, Mayor.s and Governors Philadelphia All Saints recital debut, Portland Oregon College concerts and recitals As student and performer: Los Angeles City College, Cal State Los Angeles, Loma Linda University, University of Redlands, Glendale College, Pasadena City College, Cal state Los Angeles, President of touring choir. Pilgrim Lutheran, Beaverton, Oregon Fund-Raiser ,Debut Prescott, Arizona.s camp meeting, introduction of Songs for souls. Opening recital of book: “Songs for Souls” Central S.D.A. Church 1978 General Conference of Seventh-day Adventists 1980 John Carter Report 1991 recitals and concerts with Paul Mickelson Recital Ordination, 2001 Trinity Lutheran Church, Pasadena, Ca. Byron Spears Evangelistic Crusade, Portland Oregon, Soloist, and numerous church in Southern California Conference, S.D.A. soloist. 67 (malefactors, vagrants and lies.) Many stories are derived from true incidence and real facts. This is one of them. Instructions : Read the page signified by the underlined passages, the entire book, then read the dialogue box for clarifying what has already been read.( you might want to read the whole page , but it is not set up that way.) From the earliest recall, she knew she was not like everyone, as she sat a child, on the furniture in the living room pretending, she had a piano and she called the sound, “glinging”. As time went by, she was in her own world view and others would be allowed to comment either for her, or about her, but what really she saw was what she knew and what she heard was supernatural. The music,(she said) just flowed beautifully in her head, sometimes so glorious, she could not comprehend or like others even learn it. She looked for those sounds having been coached by her mother and grandmother. They said, “…find a sound you like, and make that sound.” _____________________________dialogue box: Recalling a childhood, mixed with love and fear, separation and divorce, this child went from elementary private school to one year of public school, being involved in musical instrument training and encouraged in vocal solo work and honors in her elementary graduation. The reflections she gives are scanty because hunger and deprivation was a legal issue of alimony, not clear to her children how, it became that way. There was no seeking of justice in the welfare system of her home state and the grandparents who were also loving had an extended home toward these three children (her and her two brothers). Claudia’s Mother was a student nurse who spent her waking hours at the hospital in training, and the children were “latch key” kids. 68 Claudia began to believe her sound was like Georgia Laster and Leontyne Price, in those days, that was known as great and beautiful sounds that the voice can make. It takes hours of devotion to make those sounds. As she walked around the periphery of the music center trying to find the entrance to the great halls in Los Angeles, (the Disney center was not yet heard of) finally she entered a door that was familiar to her. Dressed in plain but clean clothing, she looked for volunteer work, and was assigned to the offices of the Music Center. Job search church corridors Restaurant waits Service work Bus ways Camp sites of nightly stays at churches Helping others along the way The attempt to edit this book has placed God in a precarious position of trust that she would do what he asked her to do, with regard to making sure he document is correct and clear. She thanks God alone, and does not look for excuses, for completion and submission of these facts to the world as they look onto this story in its final form. 69 Back at the welfare office, she was bewildered at the focus she had on life as adjusted by her income rather than her scholastic achievement, but refused to let her behavior follow the rebellion, her mind was in. Ma was a good singer, but far from home, and the children she loved dearly, were, in the care of others, because, though she had achieved well in school, she was buffeted by an unbelieving world, and that world view was the enemy.s way of keeping her in her place, which was no where. Claudia.s CHILDREN by Wayne, PHOTOS, HERE: BOTH CHILDREN HAVING LEARNED SOME OF THE SAME REPETOIRE FOR THE ACADEMY OF PERFORMING ARTS AND THE SETTLEMENT SCHOOL WOULD REFLECT A FORMER KNOWLEDGE OF SONGS THEIR MOTHER TAUGHT THEM. Dialogue box: If love for your children is the only axiom for action, then Claudia would qualify. However we find that the many spaces missing in the total view and span of time is not seen, the long hours of waiting for word from them, being in the charge of each grandmother, and no one asking Claudia how were her children doing. Many passers-by in the between times, behaved as though she had no family or history to be concerned with, was how they made it her concern to stay out of the view and lives of anyone else, and not to draw any attention to herself. As the Merciful God would have it, others came to rescue her to take care of herself, these benevolent circumstances came in terms of bus fare to get to meetings, and daily meal allotments that she stretched into clothing vouchers and clean up times. She would notify her children, often of her whereabouts but this was after a long span of eight years not being in close proximity. 1984 to 1992. There was no calling their mother and telling of school, progress, photos, up-dates of important happenings, just a huge void of, “wonder what is happening…”( it was as though I was on a singing tour yes, I was singing a lot but not really on tour.) 70 MUCH EARLIER, in Philadelphia, she stood singing the introduction to the opera audience there, was the beautiful Aria; “Vissi D’ Arte”, by Puccini, for Mayor’s and Governors at the Samuel Evan’s Banquet, this soprano artist, sang. She made the gown which was a spectacular Fuchsia pink formal length “poe’de’soire”(satin like) fabric, the pictures were for the Steinway Hall, Los Angeles debut, the same year. She relied on that dress three times that year the other time being the United Negro college fund banquet in Huntsville Alabama, she was asked to write the musical fanfare for the festivities. The husband was an executive, but Claudia and her husband did not know that the government cut backs would mean the end of their marriage the second time. ____ DIALOGUEBOX: Going to “Phily,” was a second time trip(1984), the first being years after the marriage, when the husband.s father died. Claudia felt distanced by the attitude prevalent, that she would never be a part of the family, but she blended into what they would do and kept her God of service and duty which included visiting the prisoners in the Philadelphia prison systems and singing for them. Her mother similarly had Claudia to always sing for the patients in the hospitals where she took her nurses training, this attitude of helping others seemed a great relief amidst the air of trouble brewing by substance abuse. In all the family history, both hers and the husband.s, the interaction of a family of musicians is always at work in the Claudia lifetime. She and her brother Shannon have performed the Handel.s Messiah, consecutively for more than a decade. Shannon,(the eldest brother) a veteran of the army has made many singing journeys of excellence in music. The in-laws too, were musical but there was no geographical way of putting the scope of a larger combination of family people together in those days east and west did not join often enough. 71 What is a daughter of God doing in a dilemma like this? Claudia reflects back to the scene in front of the Music Center in Los Angeles. Oh how she wished she could fix this, but she couldn.t, and should the story be told, how will that change anything, how will it make a difference. She focused on the girls and hope they are in good spirits and circumstances, fearing that her decision to trust her relatives to care for them, would ultimately be the best for them, no T.V. Shows and interviews to let people know how she and her children were getting on. You know everyone says a child belongs with their mother, but after the husband.s job loss 80.s and the sporadic unemployment or unemployment checks with no connection, to her University studies, or her employment at the hospital those years, she was in terrible back strain, and she was hospitalized, after which she was struck by a car in Philadelphia. Dialogue box: Here is Claudia, with no “delusions of grandeur,” for she had already attained acclaim of world class in two performing categories, one of high compliment audition at the Metropolitan Opera in New York city for Rise Steven’s the Executive Director of Auditions. The other performing category, her own itinerary of debuts, were in San Francisco Soloist and President with the Cal state Choir, and the other debuts in Huntsville, Philadelphia, Portland, Oregon and Los Angeles. Yet here, she was made to feel, small and out of place, inappropriate to her surroundings and odd and different than that of which is required. These being God’s lessons in humility, were strange in the face of the expectations of training for attainment, in honors and scholastic achievement and stage performance, all being given direction through Qualified Instructors. On the street for a hot minute as a homeless person, not one would take an interest in the attainments she had made, more than that they are liable to call her insane or dreaming, to mention such attainments, which through the years, leaves its scars of loss, of history and belongingness. Claudia made all her costumes from age 14 for her going out to banquets and singing for audiences. A trained seamstress and listed with Daisy Kingdom, in Portland, where she at one time sold fabric to customers of the Multnomah county area and took an interest in the “Quilters” groups. The kindness of other took her in, after she sold her mobile home, bewildered on which way to turn, she traveled back to Los Angeles, and Her Dad looked over her, for a time. 72 The husband had throat surgery, and they could not make it on their own, thus relying on relatives to take them in. In this case there were extended family relatings with other countries, this being where the strain was, who would lead out in the family, as the older folks were getting on in years. Her mom and dad had been divorced and remarried, and she chose to leave the kids with each grandparent, one to her side of the family and the other to his side of the family. Dialogue box: This husband was a hard to catch for marriage at the first, a fellow of the east. In Claudia.s training, they went to “college days” visitation in the Southland of the U.S. The tours of the sixties, where the introduction was made through a close friend. She and he made a date that same week. They corresponded for many weeks before he came to California, and lived with her and her mother, and after a month, proposed. They eloped, not having clear approval from both sides of the family. This was a scripted message of, I wouldn.t do it, not, do not do it! So Claudia and her beau, selected a well known pastor of Pasadena and went and got their health approved for marriage. The wedding took place in the home of the Pastor in Pasadena. And the elopement honeymoon was clearly there, most blissful and happy. After those days, they returned to her apartment, and soon got a place of their own. Claudia was working for the public utility at that time, and was all the buzz about her virginal ways, in an area where chastity was not the normal choice. The ingénue previously had gone to Los Angeles High school and was enrolling to Los Angeles City College the year of her graduation which took place during her honeymoon period the first year. This new hubby decided to quit his job at a local mercantile and go to finish college, so off they went, which wisdom did not speak of her to transfer to another public utility, she thought she would be cared for, as wife, and after the first year, a soon to be mother. This didn.t last, for after the child was born, they moved back to Los Angeles from the college place and pursued employment, the baby was born and the divorce was soon after. 73 Recalling that since Claudia was a senior scholarship student at Cal State Los Angeles, the obvious thing would be, get connected right away and go back to college her last semester. But no one rallied to her cause. This is why she rebelled. It was too much to expect that the social structure that made her of some worth, would deny her entry or re-entry to her own station of scholastic achievement, some default not of her own making. Stop! Why dare her to think in terms of exploitation! She slept on the steps of the temple front and the churches, in a prefabricated camp site. Often buffeted by her circumstance and wondering if she could pull her life together through some strange turn of events, or some gentile poverty, she prayed:” God, “…Please keep me from hurt, harm, and danger.” Dialogue box: Here we see a gap of time when the marriage that ended in divorce, began again with re-marriage by a different pastor in Los Angeles. The husband worked with the probation department to get his degree in social science. They would on the weekends endure long drives to Los Angeles to fellowship with a friend’s church, the acquaintance being close friends of the groom, were very tidy in their life and expressions of musical endeavors. The couple moved to Portland, Oregon, Claudia’s home town, where Hubby’s first employment after graduation was with the Metropolitan Steering Committee, who hired the both of them, her in office, and he, in executive capacity after which in a year they moved again to the college area. Having solved the problems and dilemma’s of the past, (the couple being united again) had a second child, another daughter. The service and duty of the husband took them to the Camp Pendleton area, where he worked and she was a house wife and church organist, as well as choir director in the “Fallbrook” Camp Pendleton area. This was the year before Claudia started actively writing music. The University of Redlands took her on as a student, where she flourished as a soprano opera student in general studies, yet performance of noteworthy endeavors were her call when studying under Dr. Walter Martin. The ideals of perfection were underway, even though she in particular did not see herself in the public eye other than a very good singer, it was the OPERATIC views of professional instructors, that eyed her to a perfected state. 74 The solution of abuse programs could help her but would never reveal this story. Claudia put herself through rigorous energy of self revelation and devotion to God, while working with others the questions of what admissions to substance abuse can mean to her and her family. Ultimately, this meant a whole ream of other information that much of it is of private concern in the vagrants life let alone some one less harmful in the public with no violence in her history. The picture of the singing “glinging” Claudia girl, had lost its focus, for the reality was though she had admitted her backsliding, she was not given the logical conclusion of this situation, and that is, to hire her “abilities”. She would go to various places prior to her husband.s job loss, but the view of her was indigent and obvious prejudice against her present state, not her past achievements, and certainly not her skills or trade. Dialogue box: No one dare estimate the hours of time on the feet of a homeless person, who by any means must get there, ever on foot, such is the tale of most, eventually down to no income. The years just prior to complete homelessness, were those that are little income in nice positions of work but sporatic and not enough to stretch without working several jobs to make the difference, which in choice means she had to leave her mobile home that she had bought from the settlement of the “hit and run” accident in Philadelphia, and then make a decision how to live on the rest. These times were careless morally, and by the time she returned to California, she had to totally rely on her dad, and welfare. The welfare office sent her to be tested for social worker, because she had at least two years of college. That time was only for one exam and the often moving about in between, meant walking long distances from Santa Monica to inner city or century city to Los Angeles. Later some walks from Glendale to Pasadena, took 3 hours. People began to be vague again with Claudia on where to go and what she was to do. Here again she found usually no management level at places where she thought would be a good part time job, the distance was much greater now on foot and the loose time, daily, began to be foggy with discouragement. 75 Thread bare feelings took over in the well groomed training and anxiousness was replacing common ordinary needs to prepare, for each day. She would often resort to staying in the library to read, or practicing a piano somewhere, if no one would give in to her whereabouts at the time she was practicing. This was simply unacceptable to her and she would connect with the temples where she slept the night before, hoping some lead or some call or mail would reveal, someone was going to rescue her, for from hearing a teaching that suggests that this means “under persecution,” still as such cannot be acted upon, even relatives are supposed to take you in by California law, however Claudia would not go to anyone, she believed she should find her way not be a beggarly element among relative and friends, for to them, and to mankind, to “…come boldly before God…”, was a gutsy ignorant move. The vagaries of contacts, as though she would one day come out of the fog, and prostitute her life until rescued, was prevalent in the attitudes around Claudia, (see the pictures for some details, general location and bussing routes) a constant fear and desperate quietness and a prayerful watch became her daily seeking, as she visited church and shelter in the two cities, Pasadena and Glendale. Many weekends she would go to her Dad.s place to visit. Dialogue box: What can support the evidence that, Claudia wanted to work with God, and was indeed and in fact doing ministry? Only those who acknowledged her music ministry in the past, were giving support of moral concern for her visitations and the singing in the audience, This performance was a clear departure from the solo work that managing ministers had formerly called Claudia to. But the overriding factor was that even though Claudia was well educated, to her senior, university year, that would not be relevant to those who constantly review the aspects of your life in terms of money, position, and geographical scope. In the heavens, God accounts for us all, and as we pray, our earnestness is reflective in supportive ways from him. The public interest did not reflect that God was indeed on Claudia’s side and that God had a genuine concern for her moral behavior, daily sustenance, physical well being, and contacts with friends and relatives. She would have to surmise, through meditation and prayer, the leadership of God’s direction, of what and how to do things, as the days spanned into weeks and months, yes, and years. You have a mental problem? You can tell the state, to get disability, she had no mental problem, so the state could not take care of her, she had physical problems that were borderline, poverty is an economic problem, and no problems came in the medical review, and no state aid assisted her there. Claudia had a financial (economic distress=”Extreme Hardship”) problem, and with the help of welfare, at times she was able to get by from week to week at length some ten years. From all these aspects, she derived the opinion that mission work was the central concern, and whether she could or could not be a figure in the workings of the missions remained to be experienced. 76 77 The call came through a person of *noteworthy acclaim, and the assignment was to sing solos and join the local singing group. This group was interracial and had a number of aliens who were trying to become citizens but for some reason, alike as they, she was not able to get into her previous station or work, and those aliens were not able to become naturalized citizens. The artist Claudia though, had already news worthy acclaim in the Glendale Ledger and News Press, for Civic Light Opera work. ________________________________________________________________________ Dialogue box: Safety and travel, bus-ways, were hoped and insured constant public input to her daily review and tenacity to connect her musical programs and carry her violin and bags on the bus for 22 years. Eventually the concert season in the poverty developed into street ministry on the corner of De Lacey and Colorado in Old Town, Pasadena. By 2008 has become a Harvest ministry, waiting new life to take over the constancy of music and worship programs offered there. On the street you can see all types of people, trying their skill at an instrument, and some organizations who bring seasonal Christmas programs to the areas. The reception by the public is always positive and helpful. As the years have gone by the last three years have been hard on Claudia’s throat but no colleagues or peer’s worried about her well being or health, two angels became benevolent toward Claudia in 1994. The carrying of music, and equipment was very tasking. If by the bus she continues, there is more interaction with people who might need help, that is one aspect, then, they are the passersby, who might offer themselves as part of the answer, in offerings or in comments. Experience began to teach her that the actual giving of funds is separate in helping with momentary meals for the poor, because the contacts must be on a private personal basis and not revealing the poor peculiar needs of each individual. While the cities usually have meal programs, there are many, who daily do not get the “Lord’s kitchen”(dinners for the poor) or other handout programs for the poor, and some programs are phased out. * “ The World’s Finest Organist”( came as hero to the rescue, asking Claudia to sing for the church work) he is the one who goes out on the highways and byways and brings you in. 78 THE PEOPLE The people involved themselves into Claudia.s life, MANY PEOPLES FROM EVERYWHERE, some voices she heard along the way. You hear voices, you pay attention, But these actual interactions were simply common greetings as such you meet in daily life, until she began witnessing in street minstrel work. There was no money to be had, and those people who suppose that you can just make it by breathing the air, were of no help to the reality of that level of pain, the aching feet with hole marks the size of a half dollar, the fear of being stranded, or having to go to the restroom and there is nothing open in the middle of the night, who will be there when you search for a resting place? Can you live outside? No extra sandals for your feet ?,or a purse to carry? Can you preach in an instant? Do you like people saying you are a mental problem? Do you fold under the improprieties of “always”, or “Ever”?(always in your face and ever near you?) Dialogue box: “Greater works shall you do…”, can be imagined in Claudia’s mind as, distance and time element expected to completion of her ministry here on earth. While enlisted in service above, Claudia believes that the continuation of ministry is eternal Praise and Adoration to the Only True God, the Father, and that through the Son and the Spirit. Claudia Praising voice “…can be heard for blocks, (is said by passersby,) yet as time developed, given weather conditions, the length of time the vocal chords are used in singing and preaching, the travel distance an hour to get to the location are all factors in the change and need for replacements, and this includes the learning new instruments on the street, like the violin, taken up after many years already singing for the public, all extreme challenges, all pressed and without a formal call, and paid salary. Claudia, ” The Minstrel”, who sang simply concert songs and classical arias (from the academic University studies) was an attraction to the “known” songs and repertoire of great composers. This was the impetus of getting the people’s attention and perhaps getting pointers on employment. Some agencies that knew she sang would say…”why don’t you just sing…”, when they knew she was looking for employment… they had no grasp of what she was going through to find work. Other persons would offer food, but were seemingly ignorant of the the moments, days, weeks, months and years to all the other aspects of Claudia’s life. 79 In the public and never in private, the feeling of clothes sticking to her skin, and the fear of odor which meant drawing attention to evil or even to beast in the field at night. CHALLENGES. Trying to figure out how to live or if one could live. Sleeping on the grass, on the steps in front of stores, in back of buildings, mostly for safety around the churches, was the resort, high visibility, when fear was a follower, at night, CHALLENGES. The expectations of daily life were much of how to get through the day carrying a handful of bags with no where to rest them. On the weekends meeting many church people Sabbath and Sunday, would ask how are you doing, but were not saying they were prepared to do anything about it, left Claudia wondering, about all those people in the audience who claimed they were of some wealth and station in life. Dialogue box: These aspects of daily living, were sometimes cloistered in private surveyal of how to get things done expediently and not vocal to the momentary situations that arise in poverty and public use. The distance between safe points made it apparent that she had to direct her prayers and attentions to safe ways of doing things and personal poise and understanding her situation as well as transference of information to the proper people as the need arose to get things done, the dictation of her life story and aspects of the religious world and her own spiritual views, caused her concern for would there be indeed enough time to finish and edit it, to get it into proper hands after the copyright, were more than momentary concerns. There is a need to see that the preparation day (Friday) is observed and that the weekend, the church going and the visitations or the substance abuse meetings would coincide with her readiness from about early afternoon Friday spanning all the way to Sunday night, each night, on the street camping out. Going to churches to ask for vouchers, or some organization, who would give out vouchers and or clothing or food was helpful in those times. The benevolent friends were also helpful, for when welfare was applied for, that welfare, was not expedient in the necessity of momentary difficulties. When in 2007, for example, all her missionary things were stolen, there was a great gap of time when the welfare office, was not on time. All her checks, I.D., clothing, carrying luggage(the wheeled type) food cards, tapes of ministry, cleaning materials, were reported stolen, but to none affect, also the violins, (four of them) had been taken from her at various points, this was not retrieved though the police were sought. In the ensuing years, off the bus and from the church locations, the missionary efforts suffered, voids and time lapses in programs and information, though many listen because of the program content. Though often preaching as her license says,” as every opportunity that arises” she still had to buckle up for the, constant refusal to believe that she was in fact ordained and had reason to be where she was, the devil was busy making Her license facts irrelevant to place impact of the call where it was designed. The missionary’s who are poor, are viewed as not being helpful to anyone, nor good use to and for themselves. The public sees this from an unconverted standpoint and self sacrifice is viewed as a weakness in the person, not as a saintly, or godly way of living. The public believes you cannot help someone if you cannot help yourself and that is applied to, if you have no means, why do you think that preaching and singing is helpful, being in and of it self the commission of Christ, seems that it does not resonate to them as the commission, it seems to say to them there is a weak point in your presentation, this then, is when they show they do not care to hear more. 80 There are places that poor people go in the day and night. A lot of vagrants eat there, some of them are malefactors, two, some mall you, three, some make you throw up. Four, Some complain about you in groups or holler your name across the city streets, and that is strange if you do not make close friends of them. Claudia thinks of God in all this and knows he holds her hand, she has the reassurance and comfort he is there, but to be sure she would come to confession I John 1:9, and partake in communion. ___________________________________________________________________ Dialogue box: The fear factor of exposure to all types of situations and all types of people is evident when she had first stayed at a shelter. There is also the reality of not having anything herself, and the horrific feelings coupled with the stench and the hunger, gave impetus to “unbelievable,” yet hopelessness. The next day is just as bad because there was no money to go on, so she was grounded to as far as she could walk, and certain that she was stalked, each day. Not knowing whether this was training, in the first place, and no vision of how to make this information of value to others as they experience it, began to be a challenge , a quest in her as her mind began to fathom ways and means of doing things. This then being the ways and means of helping others, as when her father gave her help one year, she used it as an opportunity to buy bibles and pamphlets and hand them out, hoping also to build a parish she needed a “EIN” State number, to facilitate her own office of ministry. Later as she developed a pilot program around the United States Lend Lease Act, she became to be amazed at the indifference to her first hand experience, to use a program to help the poor, because she knew exactly what to do and how to measure out the constant needs. Claudia spent the year 2007, notifying Heads Of State, and political figures, as to the Pilot project, her letter to: ”…. Brethren of Faith and Godliness” . How can she stretch the information to usefulness in her life and times, and also be useful to her own children.s life and times became the “saintly search.” If we are to be sacrificial at some point how indeed are we to be also useful in a humanitarian point, can personal experience ever be viewed more than someone.s exploitation, if not Claudia.s her own?. 81 Why confession, you think, why admission rather than omission? What did she consider a sin? Why wouldn.t she agree to some ways when everyone near were sleeping around and making deals to get by. What about her book that she wrote 15 years earlier and making her concert work known, was this all left up to Claudia, was there no one to respond on the other side of the world view? This was not all that made up a day, and one must either decide to get out there or completely stay out of the way, part of this life was making her look crazy, or drawing attention to her, for no good, or productive reason, and that made America seem very distant to her relating. Dialogue box: She would not think to harshly of herself for she was to employ the ideals of her mother and father, intermingling facets of hygiene and beauty from them both, to make the structure of completeness in this crude, rough daily life. Caring cleaning solution and clean clothing for the next day, was a part of it, for if she was to wash in seclusion, Claudia would have to use methods that would not attract fear or attention to herself or be a harm to herself or others. In the night, she would not ask to be around people or gather friends, and in the day she would utilize every opportunity that was free access to the job market and computers, to stay relevant with the community interests and what was available in employment, doing what we are supposed to do often has no merit or measure. The nearby schools accepted her in some class of music or physical education, here is where she was also each season to stay, clean and orderly plus, attain records of her whereabouts at all times. Making the missionary parts of her work, was not a guided lesson, but this lesson of faith, unfolded into contacts each week for an hour of street ministry and daily offerings of self survey at substance abuse meetings, found to quell her problems, that arose from past failures, to abide by rules of God and man, in that short period of *four years as well as some unrevealed earlier times. *four year span of moral loss 82 There is the library. You can.t carry big bags there. There are the city stores, a lady can put on make up and use the restroom, but she cannot bathe or wash up. After the third day if you are not fully aware of your own presence in the “primordial” ooze of life it won.t be long. After about a year of pleasantries with others, one sees clearly, as did she, that no one will hire her because she are already homeless. ________________________________________________________________________ Dialogue box: These photos are typical of classroom and bus travel, bereavement, of Claudia Humphrey, never out of public sight. Although at the Universities: Of Redlands, Loma Linda and Cal State, Los Angeles. Claudia stayed in the realm of city colleges working with honor programs reflective of her book and mastery of voice, where she also received an award for Aquatics, Terry Stoddard,( swim teacher and coach with a gentle spirit and determination for his students success), Claudia took all of the swim courses. Later, Claudia had a heart attack and pneumonia in two short years, ensued by deaths in the family, one being her dearest dad. 83 No phone numbers of “others,” would suffice those who would ordinarily call her for work. But in her case it is as though she had lost historiasm(value, determining of events) or histiocyte (life connecting cells), because those places she was known seem to all have new management and not hiring her. Aside from those who had retired or died in upper management levels beyond her peers. Good jobs like, administrative secretary for firms and hospitals, hospital work in general, working for the university and agencies at some point very high levels of status eyewitness, now seemed to look askance and not return her calls. Claudia finally resorted to cleaning up in the these restrooms as a result of not being able to take care of matters any other way, which kept her out of other troubles, she was sure God was looking after her this way. Sadly, though the accounts of homeless people, worsen, and the “no account “ recording of them filters through as valiantly they overcome or are champion in their time, distance and lonely isolation, often results._________________________________ Dialogue box: Claudia’s Mother, died of cancer the year of her ordination, she recalls saying to her mother; “…They are finally ordaining women, Mother, and I want to be a part of that…” Having heard this, her Mother was very warm toward her. Claudia would write the Local Conference through faxed mail and email and the General Conference President regarding her status work and efforts. Very little was said about the street ministry, having been in the public eye so much, there was no need to think it not generally known. John Hancock, (who had earlier invited Claudia and her brother Shannon D. Goodwin to General Conference) had retired and though efforts to contact him or his son Dwayne were nil, Claudia contacted The Oregon Conference of S.D.A. and enlisted their help and the help of her former elementary school. In the keeping of contacts, whereby was an invitation to join the alumni meeting of 2004, at the inception of Claudia’s Convalescent ministry to the elderly, came the travel and she went to Oregon for the re-union. What a joy, said she, to be with her old friends who had elected her to class Chaplain, and to realize that her occupation had finally come to that, among them were Don and Phyllis Hall. 84 For Claudia to take up the banner of obvious discrimination, would mean being soundly warned that once again, you are homeless. “What do you think,” and “…who do you think you are…” (Attitudes, towards her), at demanding, anything. At that point it seems hopeless, the constancy of lugging everything with you everywhere means the decision of find a lodging point even if you do not have your own dwelling. Many times you can find little hide a ways, for things, to return and they are tossed away. Being given a promise to wash her clothes one day she hollered for help because someone would not let her in. She was arrested, and did a two year summery probation. Washing her hair in the mall restroom one day, seemed to be, the solution to her daily problem. _______________________________________________________________________ Dialogue box: To be forthright and circumspect in the front of everyone daily, was demanding beyond limits and the wait for buses in the early evening seemed endlessly cruel in the wait, she would often pray, “…please God I am ready for the bus…”, or”…Please God, send the bus now…”. There were times when people would give her a handful of money, which was a relief, and other times when the pastor.s (now deceased) allowed her “cart blanche”, to stay on the back steps or front steps for safety and moral reasons. The days were filled with mission singing and gathering helps, and trusts, when necessary. There were also, the available rooms, or garage or off to the side places to leave things, but that gratis was coupled with service, that Claudia, gladly met. Later when the sons and daughters of the Pastor.s had grown into some positions, it was an apparent transition, that they were not able to abide with , that of the freedom that had been given Claudia. Even though she was now an officer of the church, by reason of her ordination, it did not mean to them free use, that was expressed and applied to her, through the older generations. This is why Claudia says:”When you don.t know much by permission, then is to guess, when you don.t have morals, then is to assume, when you don.t have scruples, trouble ensues, but when you don.t have God, trouble never ends.” 85 Cleanliness attempted was punished by arrestment, no warm shoulder in the store guided her to a better solution, we call, America. This is called vagrancy or a person is called an indigent. If Claudia did not have a place to stay, she might get arrested, and was told the parameters outside, where she was to be of no harm to herself or others. She had to have current I.D., even if she didn.t have money to pay for the renewal of it. She worked around the temple and church rules as best as possible, and stayed in a little room off the side of the church. The concerts and recitals were on the weekends back and forth from Glendale to Pasadena. ________________________________________________________________________ Dialogue box: The inner-city work was music in the city with the senior centers, and these programs came with meals, where you would offer your music and have lunch after, some being paid engagements. There was the visit also to the city commissioner.s Meeting, here at the Commissioner.s meeting, you could reveal those things pertinent to your merge in the city.s music programs and the general condition of your contacts, To attain satisfaction for having attempted public acceptance, in field service, and ability to do ambassadorial types of things, was what Claudia did starting in 1986 Having already sung in major Public Concerts and Recitals and reviewed by Professionals, this would have to be an answer to continuance in the same venue. She Visited also the Pasadena City Council and the Glendale City Council. At some point, the “Elder Claudia” stood in the face of opposition to make sure the traffic and avenues of travel sustain an opening for some of the main meetings in the city of Glendale. This served to place her viewed by others as interested in the well being of the city, in general. Although these things done and mentioned here were in the line of call and duty of most people who minister, the general public of low income status were unaware that strides were being made, and they were not selected by officials as a voice in what could relieve the situation of the poor income bracket. There were no petitions circulated that alluded to the state of the poor, although genuine concern could have come through petition signing. As Claudia was asked to be on the Presidential Prayer team, she could see unfolding, ways to get the message of the state of her surrounding poor for help and aid in a daily basis, that culminated into the already mentioned Pilot Project “city of God” introduced as a project in 2007. The work on this is delayed by financing and communication. 86 Claudia Humphrey.s boss, (P. Mickelson), would call her to sing and that is exactly what she would do. Eventually, she became an ordained elder and clung to the church programs, even though no other work or salary was offered. She was given meal gifts but no promise of introductions to greater opportunities that she had known before her rebellion. She loved her boss, but found no return for possible union with him or other men, having been divorced, and tried to be morally clean along with being presentable for the occasions that arose from the call. _______________________________________________________________________ Dialogue box: She could see that couples were paring off, but to her they did not go. In her opinion, Claudia.s reputation didn.t follow her, because her rebellion took place away from the crowds of church fellowships and organizations. When she returned from this rebellion miraculously, no one noticed that she had been gone, and her life was amended after *”four years” of hard turns. There were other times when she felt as though men were interested, but she was far too busy being devoted to give it too much attention, and she did not want to fail God in her understanding of “Commitment.” 87 For five years when she started this new venture, she continued in celibacy. Relating to old singing jobs and persons seem to be an open door, and that she did, as a descant singer in most of the churches for visitation. Hoping that someone would hear and give interest in her ability to sing, opening the portals of excellence in music given her was not a means of introduction to higher quality friendships and jobs. The relating seem to stay on the surface of how she lived rather than of her own innate ability to do her music, which was a long time bewilderment into why do people think they have the ultimate answer in getting ahead, call themselves world class, when they have not done the academics, and performance required to say those types of things. Then the aspect of Church related programs must of course be with those ministers who they themselves have attained recognition and academia required and not feigned. ________________________________________________________________________ Dialogue box: What seemed like untapped time, was seclusion and utmost practice of hours of anthology, before going to the street to sing. In the back rooms of the church and the choir rooms, Claudia would hold a private rehearsal, sometimes, an artist in residence, as she took upon her the learning of the great classical pieces and the study of the violin. The practice of the piano, with recordings always not far behind each rehearsal were for evidence of sound and improvement. The benevolent ones, gave money for food, and Claudia would give of her tithe, offering and stretch part of it for clothing that week. Never did she reach income to the amount that the state requires for income reporting, In the early years when she was married the churches hired her on salary as lead singer and she was paid by check. But during poverty times, when responding to the treasury department, they informed her of the amount she would have to make, in order to qualify for state and federal income tax. The performances during the week, Sunday nights and Wednesday nights of singing, and playing the piano and violin for church meetings, then later the choir rehearsals all picked up to a professional readiness for programs, they all called Claudia for center stage performance of the best quality. Later, some would come that had no idea of the preparations involved to create a really good sound and beautiful adoration to God that was allowed. 88 There was the entourage of children, who by hanging about learned her program that she had done since childhood, but they made it a free for to see and “lookie loos” of corridors, doorways and halls, to what was Claudia, not at all paid, fee, where SHOULD HAVE BEEN, a free lance for her, paid fee to her, and tutiledge of her expertise. Since 1978 when the Glendale College Music department first asked her to teach private lessons, this would have been a natural job for her to assume. Thus their ideas of “gig” were supplanted and eventually subverted the attention of the „DEBUT, RECITAL AND CONCERT” Areas of her „COME., when also a field service credit in some college, could be attained, other influences who were not of practice and devotion took hold to the easier ways. Quick presentations and raggedy performances, two extremes one very loud and blasting on the microphones and one soft as a young child who had no vocal training, so there were no in-betweens and especially no harmony made, that would required excessive concentration and practice. The hopes of field service began to be very dim. Claudia played the piano off the rooms from the Master Chorale for seven years in her poverty state, just the inspirational music and prayer time, near the “camera club.” One day, she made herself aware of some options for ministry and prolonged service and started moving in that direction. With the help and leadership, conversations and reading material while working with several ministers in the Glendale and Pasadena area, she was able to do the work: The Street music and the Convalescent ministry Dialogue box: The ideals of fashion, faded away, there was no making of clothes in the arena of the 1990’s to 2008, and the clothing reflected the hardship of the ministry at hand. The lovely dresses that were complimentary to the feminine side gave way to the military look of suit and pant suits so often warn due to the weather and conditions that women had to bear in the economic extreme hardship. Claudia kept going to the thrifty answers and found clothing that was well kept and acceptable covering. Creeping into the stage were the wearing of former fashions that had heretofore been rejected, and Claudia knew that she was not able to chorale the youngsters who were using this method of attention, which some of them also had the same shabby ideas of music and performance, a quick method to a concert, there too was the unconnectedness of aliens who, not being citizens trying to lead out, meant to her that a “sound of command”, could lead to directions she was not interested in. 89 Lest they forget Claudia Possesses a Prolonged-Service record for over 15 years of service , as early as 1991. The major recital in Pasadena was her Ordination recital in 2001. Since that day, sporatic achievements of helping other poor and relating the ministry on the corner of De Lacey and Colorado are her intent for long term harvest. The past year or so, it has been mostly people who are unacquainted with the ministerial work and do not relate well to street artistry of any kind, here they need constant reminders of how it is supposed to be, how it was then and how it is now. ______________________________________________________________________ Dialogue box: Listing the method of matriculation and success, will not supply you with the exact way this entire scenario has taken place, which would, as some suggest, lead to your commitment and call, should you like to be in the ministry. Instead, what should you do if the call looks like this one. Work with others. Pray often and always for God’s guidance. Take actions that are of obvious help where selection and suggestions can be made. Part of that (I found), is with The Presidential Prayer Team. Stay in the public eye, that of the audience, or fellowship, that you select, as ministry. Study you bible all the time and pray often there too. Lead out with your obvious talents, and look to improve what you have in talents and skills. Do not quit your day job. There might not be someone available to help bridge the gaps. Write you Conference Officials, and go to school where there is supplied information, you cannot get through field service. Stay sincere, even though your dedication is not merited or apparent to others. Focus on God’s love for you, and for others. Keep a standard going and polish the standards you now possess. Ask for help, ways and means. Be willing to walk the miles. Claudia will be out there having done these things, ask yourself can you read the bible two times in one year. Claudia can. Learn lots of hymns and sing all the time. 90 My oil is here, your oil is as scripture says: “…study”, to show yourself approved…”, and I will no doubt see you in heaven! The days, weeks, months, and years, are like dad says, “ I have no idea how you do it!...” When the redeemed sing: ”… I KNOW I SHALL SEE IN HIS BEAUTY, THE KING IN WHOSE LAW I DELIGHT, WHO LOVINGLY GUARDETH MY FOOTSTEPS, AND GIVETH ME SONGS IN THE NIGHT….” (DO YOU SAY, THAT IS FROM THE OLDER HYMNALS?) “To God Be the Glory” “ ...MY GLORY, ALL THE CROSS…”, DO YOU SAY,”… THAT IS JESUS!” “O that will be Glory for me, when by his grace I shall look on his face…” (traditional hymns & quotes) The life and times of Claudia Humphrey: Songs, For Souls, “The Missionary” and “The Indigence”. Perhaps there is more to her life and story. (C) JUNE, 2009 All Rights Reserved, all portions of “Songs, For Souls”, and the Connecting Stories of the life and times of Claudia Humphrey. MY FEET ~ ARE INDEED ~ MY FOOT NOTES.! “LET MY EYES RUN DOWN WITH TEARS…” LET THE READER THINK NOW, I AM NOT READING A BLUEPRINT FOR SUCCESS, I AM READING THE SUCCESS OF ANOTHER PERSON.S BELIEF, I WILL OBTAIN WHAT I NEED TO KNOW THROUGH THE READING OF SCRIPTUREAND RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD. THE BOOK”SONGS, FOR SOULS” AND ITS REVISIONS, ARE THE LIFE EXPERIENCES AND FINDINGS OF CLAUDIA HUMPHREY NOT INTENDED TO FACIT IN OTHERS A QUICK WAY TO RELATE OUR EXPERIENCE WITH GOD, THAT SOMEHOW GUARANTEES YOU WILL UNDERSTAND GOD, OR HIS SALVATION. THIS THEOLOGY IS MEANT TO EXPRESS, THE WRITER’S WILLINGNESS, AND THE WRITER’S EXPRESSION AND WITNESS OF RELATING WITH GOD, HOPING THAT YOU WILL FIND A CONVICTION OF FAITH OF YOUR OWN IN THE WITNESS AND TESTIMONY OF THE AUTHORS WORK. THIS AUTHOR DOES NOT CLAIM TO BE A PROPHET, ONLY AN ORDAINED WORK IS EXPOSED HERE, ASUSED SINCE 2001 AND THE BOOK OF SONGS SINCE 1976. WHEN COMPOSING SONGS OR WRITING DOCUMENTS, SCRIPTURE AND MEDITATION WITH PRAYER IS PREFERRED ALL MY LIFE. THIS PASSAGE IN JER. 14:17 IS , HOWEVER, PUZZLING IF IT WERE INTENDED JUST FOR JEREMIAH, THEN WE COULD NOT USE IT FOR INSPIRATION, REPROOF OR CORRECTIONS AS ALL SCRIPTURE IS. In teaching anyone else about encouraging them into a relationship with Jesus, we would want to support our views with why this scripture was given and What God was saying about the times and the people who had erredaccording to faith. I would not suggest I were a prophet, or someone who had that special calling to counterman the actions of whole communities or else they would be dammed. However there is reproof for all of us when we say we are sorry but do nothing, not even pray for direction and the actions thatsay I have repented, I have changes. All rights reserved is something special I put in the document, but the footnotes usually say what is not mine by an asterisk* or a parenthesis() or some other identifying message. ALL RIGHTS RESEVED CONTEXT FOR JOURNAL AND LET MY EYES RUN DOWN WITH TEARS PAG 91 TO 114 INCLUSIVEThese writings are a teachable syllabus that goes with the SONGS, FOR SOULS, first hand written in the 1970.s, which include a number of supportive articles and texts. PERPETUAL AUTHOR LISTS BY CLAUDIA HUMPHREY. PASSAGES FROM SCRIPTURE ARE NOT MY ALL RIGHTS RESERVED, THAT AREIN QUOTATIONS. HOLY BIBLER U CLAUDIA INDEX? “SONGS, FOR SOULS”TEXT INDEX OF THEOLOGY Who hath gathered the contentfor songsand spiritual meaning, from bible and personal contacts? The race is for you, don.t worry about the quick witted ones who finish the text reference first, fight the fight of faith and study. Ecclesiastes 9:11, Heb 12:1Page 91 I have been Thinking MY LIFE in THESE TIMES were suggesting only the work of Jesus and his love. •Steve Boalt. Internationally recognized singing evangelist, At UCC(= UnitedCommunity Church) Calling musicians to work in praise music since 2008, had become a new witness of music with a band stand. I could resign now, for all my life work in sacred music was classical sacred, and negro spirituals. The black music that became popular in the 80’s and 90’s was not an expression of my expertise or vocal quality. I too recognized that an era was changing and I did not believe I was a part of the new era that was so different, and separate from the messages of the past in Music. The people were no longer saying to me, “I came away from your music program, healed from the music that was presented…”But the Street ministry retained the same audience of respect and call, of appreciation. To me it was not the “operatic”sound that was convincing the listener, but rather the intent and message they heard, in the selections and that moment of contact, where the spirit draws all men. This was my loud cry. Who hath met and worked with qualified persons? Page 92 •Work and service after Paul Mickelson dies. United community church 1991 to 2009, The location of the John Carter Report 1991. This is where I launched my street and convalescent ministries. I tried for two years to get back home to camp meeting audiences in Gladstone. I wanted the people in my home town to know that their faith in that little girl Claudia they elected as chaplain, was doing her job of ministry in california. Wounded for me, there on the cross He was. Who hath sent angels to insure the work. Page 93SUFFERED Looking to the author and finisher of our “faith.” Who hath saved the work so it would not be lost?Page 94 When the mission doesn.t seem clear and the page or picture fade out of view, it is at that time of difficulty and distance ,between times, short of friends and distance too great. Twenty years is a sample of no pictures taken directly to me in the service and mission yet at the church we were recorded every service for praise and worship. •I wish you would study your bible more, some people work at finding easy answers,while others steadily find answers. •Then when we get together that is what we should agree on from day to day, what we study, pray and apply in our lives. •I started more earnestly and developed worship and song ritual like this: Important texts should be inclusive of a range of topics. I would find a reading room and study my bible texts and increase my usage of scriptureeven when homeless, I find great assurance in bible reading. There were times when organizations would help me get food for that day, I am so grateful for, the bible helped me to understand my need and also to help others, there is strength in the scriptures. John 5:39( you examine the scriptures carefully because you suppose that in them you have eternal life yet they testify about me. ISV) •KJV : “Search the scriptures; for in them ye think ye have eternal life: and they are they which testify of me.”) •What you do to help others is a reflection of your purpose and direction, what life gives you, and what you give in return. Page 95 As a pastor studies after years of sharing music and finds readings of scripture useful even in their old compositions here are some texts filed away with songs for service to go with the topics. ArmageddonLuke 21:25-26We know not the hourLift up the trumpetpsalms 52:11God hath spoken… ”I sing the mighty power of GodGod the omnipotentMaster the tempest is raging.. Isaiah 24: 1-4Behold the lord makeththe earth empty… When thou my righteous JudgeIsaiah 24: 5-7The coming King is at the door. The lord.s our rockWill your anchor hold. Is 24:17-21Watchmen blow the gospel trumpetO where are the reapersRescue the perishingDaniel 12: 1,2Throw out the life lineHark! „Tisthe shepherd.s voice I hearWe have heard a joyful soundCome we that love the Lord. •Revelations 16: 17-19•all hail the pwerof Jesus name•Worthy worthyis the lamb•Tisalmost time for the lord to come•Over o’er me Holy Spirit•Come Ye disconsolatePage 96 The coming of the Lord, “…The heavens….Shaken…!”•Brightly beams our Father’s mercy. •Safe in the arms of Jesus. •Blessed assurance Jesus is mine. •MY ZEAL, MY SONG OF CHRIST•Licensed ordained ministry•Registered with the Seventh-day Adventist Southern California Conference since 2001•Claudia Ann Goodwin-Humphrey Service ministerWho hath stored the works for good keeping? Page 97 We thank thee for our eternal work and united table set before thee. We thank thee and bless thee for the promise of the new earth and new heavens. We thank thee and bless thee for eternal peace, as our eyes behold all things always new forever and our bodies represent the incorruption. We thank tee for passing from death to life and for being re-united with all our loved ones you save. We thank you and bless you Father, Son and Spirit for your Holy word that stands forever and is eternal of you and for us to rule and order our lives and is eternally true. We thank you for meeting you face to face and talking with you and the blessed assurance of that eternal reality. We thank you for projecting our hopes and dreams before we saw your conquering hand change these things. We thank you and bless you to meet all saints answering all ourprayers for salvation we bless you and the spirit and your song JESUS forever and ever amen. And again and again with the Holy angels we thank you for untiring praise and words that abound because of your eternal grace and presence. We thank you for the destruction of the old sin era and in all of the universe that ruled against that you are the only true God. We bless you for Jesus and His Holy nations who brought us eternal truth of thy word and Bless you that you keep your promise, that we might all be one. We thank you that your kingdom is forever and forever, Lord God Almighty, as New Heavens and New Earth are praising thee thou King of Saints, who clothes us daily in thy righteousness and our robes are cleansed through His Holy Blood forever. We thank thee Father God, that we now will learn truths only because nothing shall defile. We work with thee Master of the Universe in Harmony always that we believe and always see. •Claudia Humphrey author composer writes: •Prayers we hope to say in heaven one day. (reflection of what we might be happy for. Though”…eye hath not seen the things prepared for us…”) •Holy Father we thank thee for thy Holy salvation and Bless thee,thy Son and thy Spirit. •We thank thee for the blessing of living with thee through eternity and for the Healing of nations. •We thank thee for the promise of the destruction of the wicked one and the preservation of our righteousness through Jesus the lamb sent from thee for us. •We thank thee for the unity of the universe, peoples and nationswith angels. Who hath eternal works always in mind? Page 98 I write no beautiful book•Do you have time to write a book? •When was 33 years old, I did. And copyrighted it, I was so excited about it, I made a recital around it. This should be coveting the best spiritual gifts, not to incur the wrath of envious others, it should be a consistent portrayal of your life and Christ. •I can only log my experiences, my songs, the pictures of my lifeand times. •When I read my journal, I have to edit out thoughts that were meant only for private introspection. •I have to do apologetically what is an overview of life and times as I see them, can I be willing to convince others of Christ and his return?. •The ministry for others is a self awareness in the picture of your world view that you may see the needs( through Christ) of others, then set out to dosomething useful about it. We speak of gifts of the spirit in bible terms, but the actual working of the spirit is your laying on of hands of that experience, not that you have glowing letters and arts or resume, but can you do the task that is set before you and understand with love the demand behind that act. Being”…instant in season…;’can you be a Samaritan, or a word of knowledge to a situation that others would turn away or spurn? •It is not should I write a book, it is I must tell what is happening, so that others might see and they too can be inspired to do something around them, intheir own realm, their song, their life. I at times resorted to college credit for my book and honors classes so that atleastthey would be sung around the youth in this age. Page 100 AveinuMalkeinu(prayer gatherings) •Your prayer book should have text provided for reflection, but prayer itself is personal and momentary in every situation that may not be the same prayer to text selection. •It is therefore suggested that you contemplate the prayers and select the text as you go for what petition you care to submit to the Lord. Page 101 WRITTEN FOR PRAYER SEEKERS ORIGINAL CONTENT SEARCH NOT FOUND Vocabularythe sample here is the hebrewword and it’s englishmeaning. (You can do the same with any language) the point being coming the closest to the word you select for the petition you are making, is preferred. •Ashamnu-sinful•Bagadnu-faithless•Gazlanu-cruel•Dibarnudofi-sarcastic•Heevinu-arrogant•Vehirshanu-vicious•Zadnu-fraudulent•Chamasnu-vulgar•Tafalnusheker-dishonest•Yaatznura-deceptive•Kizavnu-liar•Latznu-frivolous•Maradnu-rebellious•Niatznu-insulting•Sararnu-obstinate•Avinu-subverters•Pashanu-offensive•Tzararnu–hurtful•Kishinioret-stubborn•Rashanu–unjust•Shichatnu-corrupt•Travnu-destructive•Tainu-eratic•Tittanu-neglectful Page 102 Gatherings of word combinations, is done because the learner is compiling meanings to what they want to say in Hebrew, having not learned from a scholar, the idea is to supply two or three words or suggestive phrase to what you want to say, this is of course for those who want to petition using some of the words in hebrew, and not to suggest that these are the phrases used in hebrew, the attempt at drawing close to God in any language, your own, is best, this process is simply a way I , for example may approach some particular parts of my devotion, this is not a rule of faith it is an expression of my faith. •LORDRIBBON•Supply deliverance = SEPPEK PEDAT SEPPEK = supply forgiveness KIDDESH TSIYUT= sanctify obedience SILLEK SIKKSUKH=remove dispute SILLEK SAKHSKHANUT=remove quarrel mongering•SALH TURPA=forgive weakness –In the exercise of saddling my ideas to my ideals coupled with prayer I found that the word usage did not always fit the perfection. IN DAILY LIFE I WAS MEETING THE FOLLOWING DICTATES TO MY HEART, EVEN THOUGH STUDYING MY BIBLE, PRAYING I WAS OFTEN IN CROWDS AND ALWAYS IN PUBLIC FOR 22 YEARS, MUCH OF IT HOMELESS. THE DETAILS DO NOT SUGGEST THAT PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT HOMELESS WOULD NOT HAVE THESE SAME DIFFICULTIES. NOTE: THAT THESE THOUGHTS ARE NOT CONNECTED WITH SOMEONE OR YOURPERSONAL DIALOGUE IT SUGGESTS THAT IT IS ONGOING FOR ANY TYPE OF TROUBLE ONE MEETS. If this helps someone, that is even better, if it only points to me, God only knows and cares. •LIVING RIGHTEOUS=is rather a devoted way of thinking, gathering thoughts and writing. •It is prayer and surrender to God.s will , no amends if you are walking right. •Living evil is not walking right= what to do if you hear the voice of swearing for i.e.. Leviticus chpt5•SIGHT IS EASE, STRAIN OF EYE IS ILL AT EASE•CROWDED RESTROOM STRAINS PATIENCE, LACKING IS TROUBLE. •IN POORLY TAUGHT SURROUNDINGS .Things should be done “…decently and in order….” •Many things are rank and file clean, trust, pray, and help. •The man who is a fool defies rank, order, permission and courtesy. •********instructions for new music page 181(check) Page 103 The fool will inconvenience you, they carry no burdens or loads or cares. Or reasonable boundaries, they are not constrained. •This person will not hire industry, nor will they be prone to buy. Or light a candle so that some will see. •Equity finds sharing a privilege not to be ignored. Those who expect you to give should also recognize your talents and abilities, sothat you have the dignity of sharing from your own skills. Not to be assumed upon as not willingto give, to tithe or also give offerings. Justice finds may ways to express help. Mercy allows candor and discretion. •Faith pulls out to as many directions it takes to get it done, until the health fails. •Resource implants a “ways and means”committee•Gossip spreads the good and bad news and makes ill at ease. •Gluttony neither prays for help nor leaves your plate without taste tests. •Poverty can happen anywhere , but unwise will neither inquire ofit , see to it, support or direct it, nor will they pass the hat, or JOB. Page 104 “GET IT YOURSELF” •IN THE EVENT YOU FIND YOURSELF TALKING ABOUT WHAT WORKS WITH THOSE WHO WILL LISTEN YOU MIGHT CONSIDER THE WORDS IN THIS BOOK AS SUGGESTION ON OR WHY THINGS WORK.”GET IT YOURSELF”WILL FIND A WAY TO STEAL, SNEAK IT OUT OF YOUR REACH, MOVE YOURS , HAVE HIDDEN AGENDA. •SLOVIN, WILL SEE HELP COMING DIRECTLY TO THEM AND THEY WILL RUN TO AVOID A CONFRONTATION. •Authority, will sit behind barriers and such as ruling, but whenthings are not equal or right, you must then decide not to trust them. •Entrusted, will no doubt know where things are and how to obtainwith no problem•YOUR REFERENCES ARE THEY=APPLY ENROLL, COMMUNICATE, MOVE FORWARD, •DO OUT SIDE ISSUES•THERE ARE NO AMENDS TAKING IN RELIGION BECAUSE CONFESSION IS ABOUT A REAL GOD AND SAVIOUR WHOSE POWER IS NAMED, CLAIMED, WITNESSED NOT ADULTERIZED, HAS NO OTHER GODS, IS BLOOD ATONED{NOT TO BE REPENTED OF(TAKEN BACK) ONCE ACCEPTED] •The boundaries of the Lord are not to be broken. You lie do not touch her. Do not lust after her/him do not touch the unclean thing. Do not touch the Lord.s anointed, what are boundaries for. •When God created there were no strangers or boundaries, after his work was done. •Bringing that phrase together, I suspect you know something about strangers and friendliness. Reasonable people , Reasonable requests, rational minds, conducting right action, the reception and dispatch of information, hopefully in Christ is not repellant to any of his followers. •There is no circumstance understood or accepted unless scripturecan be applied to it: therefore not everything can be accepted exactly as it is, for the Realm of which it comes is either evil or good. From God or From teDevil. •The devil is totally unacceptable. If you find this is material you have concluded already, that is o.k. it is just to help those along, who do not conclude or have understanding. Page 105 Spiritual reality! The difference keys to otherwise than scriptural promise you find axioms that are not thus saiththe lord, power that does not develop from embracing A HOLY SPIRIT. Does not give definition to who God is and why does not herald the god of our youth where we first knew and understood God. Some dictates to our conscience say we “ought”to do something, but they will not say thus saiththe Lord, where in is the anointing he gives and the testimony of His power. For he is the Highest power. •Keys of scripture •Learning•Instructed•Corrected in righteousness•Inspired•Profitable•Edifying•Laws of the lord•Purity•Enlightening•Converting the soul•Testifying•Wisdom•DesirablePage 106 The mind of Godthe mind of man the mind of satan(evil) sinner needs amends and will not yield to a better standard. Unbelieving but always defeated in its rebellion. Wants to read to admire, intellect, but unyielding to principlesof doctrine, and truth or those who do overcome, this person will have the woes of worldly heroes , not necessarily Godly paths. The wonder, how you did it, how did you conclude to think to write, to pray about it, this is called a carnal mind, other thoughts other ways of doing things without consulting God and his people. I am not an authority on how you should live. If I have grasped some success and you deny the fruit of it, that is of your doing, but you cannot deny the rewards from God to people to whom he has given. Where is your motivation, by prayer and good example, belief , boundaries. What of the one who takes your plate, your things , your life, whether you have a petition or not. He takes your turn whether or not you are willing. He takes your answers”….rapacious”is his character, your spotlight, turn, anything that is left he takes without rights of gleaning. A person who gleans knows when no one is going to use it because it is free, he looks to see isthis yours. Thus forcing your hand of reception to God.s giving you. This I call a TOWER OF BABEL= GAMER.”ON EVERY RUNG OF THE LADDER WITH YOU BUT, CLIMBETH UP WITHOUT PERMISSION. •Do you have emotional security? •Knowing God: he that cometh to God must believe. Hebrews 11:6•Bookish????, Hewants you to think about his word, for there is promise! Page 107 Vindication Ps. 26Confession own faults are you a snitch? You share crimes , you do not confess because you are in collusion. I know some call me reverend (only God.s name I Reverend) some call me Mrs., some call me someone.s sister or someone.s mother some call me by my first name. that part is “rare”because, we were taught never to call a person by their first name, how did humanity get away from that generation of respect? Some think that a title is a sign of certain level, but you know that it takes little explaining about the person if you give them due respect, then there are not a whole lot of questions about who and what they are. The dignity that the Lord has said is due. And there is the dignity of courtesy to all that the Christian should express, besides , exhorting, imploring, rebuking, or pronouncing, what is clean and unclean for our use. •If is say these things really happen, does not make me an authority of them, just a reporter of the facts as they come. •When vindication is needed, confession of ones faults is vital. Jeremiah chapter 7. •Virgins are not in collusion they do not touch each other.s bodies. •Do you have a confession, do you force a kiss on a body to make a crime seem like “hi” partner.Do you lie protocol, proper, collusion? •He/ she seeks out partners to satisfy the needs. This is how they repay a minister or ministry??? Question it, voice it. Graft collusion, selfishness, long search, little pay, rewards, resources, no family , relating for fear of over or under involvement, held suspect , placed in situation for more proofs. Page 108 Why wouldn.t you want all the business to reflect your work and all the mail? To be a recipient of non-profits. Or get a “ein”non profit status? •Be exempt status•People you work with•Seemingly giving but not real money situation receiving? •Below minimum money problems? Yet field service reportable. •There are times too that so called ”bequests”should be honestly stated as heirs of the kingdom. Are they real or imposing situation to satisfy their curiosity? The emails by 2003 were copious but not answerable. This distribution for exact kind of work expressed did not take into account what expenses might be incurred in a day, it was do you need food, so then all the 24 hours of needs were never met. •How shall the record show that all the money the ministry receives be held accountable to us, if we are always tithing even to the very small amounts. I find that scriptural. Who hath the context of the original work, with life experiencesto back it up? Page 109 SINGING AT THE CHURCHES•THE LEAD SINGING AND SALARY CAME FROM A RESUME OF CHURCHES FORMERLY AWARE OF MY TALENTS, AMONG THEM ARE: S.D.A. •UNIVERSITY, VALLEJO, BURBANK, TAMIRIND AVE, KANSAS AVENUE, BERAN, GLENDALE CITY, LOMA LINDA UNIVERSITY, TEMPLE CITY,OTHERS ARE: FIRST BAPTIST CHRIST THE SHEPHERD TRINITY LUTHERAL ALL SAINTS EPISCOPAL, SALVATION ARMY, CATHOLIC CHARITIES, UNITED COMMNITY ALL A PART OF THE AREA ASSEMBLIES, FIELD SERVICE MISSION WORK. THE OFFERINGS OF MUSIC ARE IN SCRIPTURE A GUIDELINE OF PRIESTHOOD, WHETHER THE CHURCH STUDY OR NOT, MUSIC HAS EVERY RIGHT (WITHIN RIGHTS) TO ASK FOR SUSTENANCE FOR SERVING AT THE ALTAR. Musicians are members in particular, those who are ordained through evangelism are also included in this class. When any business conducted by these churches suggest that one has received massive funds, they need to look at the ledger and see •That I for example, have no signed checks to the amount, though I have been faithful to show up for the accountable times, in the call, other suggested that I was to be their charge when I did not agree with them on any level, eitherin writing or in academia. I found myself being classed with those who were not making it a point to be citizens of the United States of America, that too, is a sample of what usury•Can exist in our work and faithfulness. .To imply then that I amsomehow other than faithful because others do not become citizens is a travesty of justice. Page 110 Not rehabilitated, CHECK THIS OUT! •I do not trust you, for you are implacable and insatiable in terms of what it takes to do the job right, to return from backsliding. •I do not have faith in you I have to trust God because visibility means nothing to you, you will impose rules and regulations saying , “…no religion, no religion…”. •On this hand the share and participation, keep it short type of sharing can be detrimental to the particulars, you cannot reshape the existence in a moment. You must respect the keeping of scripture to those who obey it, for amends means truth unfolding, sometimes, little, sometimes much to over spilling. How does this affect growth. Who is presenting the scenario? Is this coupled by educational awareness and structure. •I have a problem I need to talk about, but there are no ears being lent to the problem, •If those be needed American ears, that too must be addressed. You cannot respect a situation that is born out of another nation being imposed over your own, or somehow disguised as helping when only masquerading as helps, when really usurpations has developed big time. •Some goes so far as to say Christ is not the one, or they will act it out by saying that they are the answer. •We get old•Seniority might be used correctly, old timers now. •A singing evangelist needs to be sustained. •I hope to write or be an author one day, to reap the benefits ofmy labor of time and difficulties. Maybe that is so American Ideal, but in my estimation, the conclusion to Fearing God and Giving Him the Glory is the right thing to do, •And a just means of income for his children is a good pursuit. •DEAR LORD, •I DO NOT FEAR THE COLLECT, IT COMES TO ME. I BELIEVE FOR MY AGE AND EXPERIENCE, I SHOULD GET MUCH MORE. I THINK I SHOULD BE VISITED BY SPONSORS OF MINISTRY WITH MONEY TO SUPPORT OR GIVE IMPETUS OR DIRECTION TO MY TALENTS, AND IF I AM 35 YEARS OLD RECEIVE SOME REMUNERATION FROM ENDOWMENT FUNDS, IF I WRITE TO THEM MAYBE THEY WILL RESOND TO ME DIRECTLY AND WITH HELPS, IF MY GRADES IN COLLEGE ARE GOOD, •I BELIEVE I SHOULD BE HELPED, IF I HAVE SCHOLASTIC HONORS, I SHOULD BE HELPED IN A POSITIVE DIRECTION. I BELIEVE THAT I WILL NOT REBELL IF I AM HELPED IN MY PURSUIT OF LIVING GOOD BEFORE YOU.THAT MY WITNESS AND SUCCESS IS A REFLECTION OF YOUR HELP AND AID IN ALL I DO. I SHOULD PRAISE YOU TO MY OLD AGE. SEE MY CHILDREN HAPPY AND THRIVING. GIVE NO ONE THE IDEA THAT I AM THE PERFECTED STATE BUT TOTALLY RELIANT UPON SALVATION THROUGH JESUS CHRIST, YOUR BELOVED SON. THAT WITNESS EVEN IF I HAVE TO SING IN THE STREETS OR TELL SOME ONE WHO HAS BEEN ABUSED ALONG THE WAY, THAT WITNESS OF YOU IS ALWAYS GOOD FOR US ALL. •I WANT TO GO HOME TO BE WITH YOU IN GLORY, AND TO BE READY FOR IT! •I HOPE THIS WORK WILL HELP OTHERS MAKE A COMMITMENT TO YOU DEAR GOD, AND THAT THIS EXPERIENCE IS PASSED ON FROM ONE GENERATION TO ANOTHER, FOR I AM A SINNER, SAVED BY YOUR GRACE. IN JESUS NAME AMEN. Who hath witnesses? Page 111 COMING OUT OF BABYLON•THEOLOGY OF THE WORLD VS GOD•WHAT GOD SAYS•WHAT THE WORLD SAYS•THE COMMON ATTITUDE OF HUMANITARIAN DOES NOT NECESSARILY ESPOUSEGOD AS RULE AND CHRIST AS EMMINENT. •SO THERE YOU HAVE PEOPLE DIVIDED ON WHOM THEY WILL SERVE. •GOD BEING THE HEAD AND CHRIST SAYING”…I GO TO THE FATHER, TO MY GOD AND YOUR GOD. •GOD THE ALMIGHTY MUST RULE, THEN PASS THE POWER TO WHOM HE WILL,FOR HIS REASONS AND HIS JUDGEMENTS. •WE SAY ALL POWER IS GIVEN TO CHRIST BECAUSE THAT IS HIS STATEMENT TO THE DISCIPLES”ALL POWER IS GIVEN TO ME…. GO YE THEREFORE INTO ALL THE WORLD, BAPTISING THEM IN THE NAME OF THE FATHER, AND OF THE SON AND OF THE HOLY GHOST, TEACHING THEM TO OBSERVE ALLTHINGS AND LO I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS EVEN UNTO THE END OF THE WORLD. •“…I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU. •“…IF THE SON THEREFORE SHALL MAKE YOU FREE, YE SHALL BE FREE INDEED. John 8:36•THE FREEDOM OF SERVICE IS IN LOVE FOR GOD. •THE LOVE THAT GOD HAS FOR US, NOW BECOMES, RECIPROCAL AND WE PROVE THAT IN DEEDS OF LOVE AND MERCY…Titus 3:5•THE ENTIRE BIBLE= IS GOD’S JUDGEMENT, THIS IS NOT JUDGEMENT WITH ALL SENTENCES PASSED, FOR THEGREATJUDGEMENT DAY WE AWAIT FOR THAT. •JOHN 8:36 •THE SON FREES US THROUGH HIS BLOOD AND OCOMMISSIONS US to mortify the deeds of our flesh. Rom 8:13, Rom 3:20, Jeremiah 11:15•THE WORLD CANNOT PROMISE US THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN, IT PROMISES THINGS LIKE•TRIPS TO LAS VEGAS AND HAWAII, THE ULTIMATE FORTUNE AND TREASURES OF EARTH. •SOME GOOD MEN PROMISE HAPPINESS THROUGH GOOD DEEDS ALONE AND AT THE END OF LIFE•THAT IS ITS OWN REWARD. •THE REWARD OF THE HEAVENLY FATHER IS ABSOLUTELY FREE ON RECEPTION OF JESUS CHRIST. “For by grace are ye saved…”Ephesians 2:8•BY THE works of the flesh SHALL NO SOUL BE SAVED. Romans 3:20•CHRIST IS THE END OF THE LAW, SO THAT ANY ONETHOSE WHO COULD NOT, CAN RECEIVE THE RIGHTESOUSNESS. Romans 10:4. •GOD’S WORD IMPRINTED ON YOU IS YOUR ONLYGUIDELINE TO SUCCESS•THE WORLD’S IMPRINT ON YOU IS YOUR DESTINED TO FAILURE BECAUSE IT CANNOT GIVE YOU WHAT GOD PROMISES. BECAUSE IT IS NOT GOD. THE WRITER OF THIS THEOLOGY INDEX PROMISES NOTHING, BUT THAT YOU TURN TO GOD ANDSTUDY YOUR BIBLE FOR THE SUCCESS OF REACHING YOUR GOAL IN RELATIONSHIP TO HIM, THE CREATOR. •IN THE BOOK SONGS FOR SOULS, THE WRITER, CLAUDIA ANN GOODWIN-HUMPHREY, HAS WRITTEN THE SPIRITUALS THAT REPRESENT•OPPRESSION IN SIN, A CALL FROM GOD , AND AN ULTIMATE SALVATION. •COME OUT OF THE WORLD AND ITS IMAGES COME TO GOD AND HIS PERFECTPLAN OF REDEMPTION THAT FAILS NOT. God says,”…become baptized every one of you in the name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost….”Acts 2:38 (the word of God is my judge, until He appears in the final judgment) Page 112 TEXT INDEX TO THE SONGS IN “SONGS, FOR SOULS” •ARE YOU CONTENTED 1Sam 30:22 •BEAUTIFUL JESUS 6 Luke 2:52•BY THE GRACE OF God 9 Ephesians 2:8 , Luke 17:19•COMEBACK TO THIS BACKSLIDEN HEART 24 Hosea 5:4, John 8:11•COUNT IT ALL JOY 11 James 1:2•DON.T PRAISE ME, PRAISE THE LORD 16 Joshua 7:19 Psalm 33:1•EXPECT A MIRACLE 25 James 1:7•GOD AND THE PLUCKING MAN 29 Matthew 18:9 Matthew 5:30•HE IS MIGHTY 4 Job 36:5, Zeph. 3:17, Job 9:19 •HERE WE ARE TOGETHER 8 Proverbs 13:19•I CAN.T WAIT 31 Heb 12:1 Psalm 37:7, Psalm 37:34 •I.M A CHILD 29 1 John 4:7, Luke 18:17•I.M HIS FATHER HE.S MY SON 7 , Mark 1:11, John 20:17 •IN JESUS NAME 32 Job 11:13, Pr 16:1, Joel 2:13•LET LOVE BE IN MY SONGS 2 Gal 5:6•LORD, LORD DON.T BURY ME 12 Micah 2:10•LORD YOU TALK TO ME 1 Hosea 5:4•LOST FOREVER ARE MY SINS 23 Micah 7:19•MATTHEW 11: 28 •MORE VALUE THAN SPARROWS 15 Matthew 10:31•NURTURING FAITH 20 Ephesians 6:4•SO MY LIFE REFLECTS 33 Ecclesiastes 5:20•SOUND THE TRUMPET 17 Rev 10:17•TAKE ONE MORE STEP 19 Job 11:13, Job 31:7•TEMPTED 27 Matthew 4:1•THEN FAITH CAME 18 Galatians 3:23, Matthew 9:28•THESE ARE THE AVENUES 13 Isaiah 35:8•TODAY.S HOPE TOMORROWS PEACE 22 Jeremiah 14:13•YOU MADE YOUR DECISION 23 Joel 3:14•YOUR SINS ARE FORGIVEN 3 Matthew 9:2, Luke 5:18, Mark 2:3•VISIONS AND DREAMS 14 Daniel 1:17, Acts 2:17, Daniel 2:28•WATER MY GARDEN 34 Luke 10:2Page 113 Do you remember credits? When I wrote “Songs, For Souls”in 1976, the credit page was not introduced but, after some deliberation, I found it necessary not to consult with others on this page for credits go to: William J., John S., Ann K., Carl B., Bill R. Malcolm, Ralph, Linda G., Rudy, Eloi, Gary, Tom T., Mona M., Al, Larry, Victor, Fred, Rosie, Mitch, DarceyG, Tess B, Paul R., Bob R., Tony and Teresa R. Mitchell B. (AND MARY MAHON FOR USE OF THE COMPUTER 2007 TO 2009) •“…If it is a matter of strength, if it is a matter of Justice•Who will summon him?...”Job 9:19•“…For you were like sheep going astray, but now you are returned unto the shepherd and bishop of your souls…” •1 Peter 2:25Page 114 Page 115 -131 THE MINSTREL (Songs, For souls” Series)all rights reserved by Claudia Humphrey since 1976, Library of Congress ucc, international copyright secured) (missionary closure) Instructional manual Is part of the “Songs,For Souls’ series by Claudia Humphrey, Soprano Evangelist. If you are born after 1975 you may not know some of this in your curriculum, Much to do with the subject is subjection toward a matter of Worshipping God. Gilbert and Sullivan’s wandering minstrel is not our travels. Claudia had exposure to high school after academy days. Herein supplies much information of how and why things were taught and done by her in her musical experience and contacts. Those who are like me come from a family of musicians in our generations were and are minstrels who set up their music where it will be heard. As early as the mall at the Galleria in the 80’s where were, the summons to sing, for public audience. In later times for her, in eagle rock for holiday greetings, even the “caroling” in the neighborhoods added strength to her exposure to earliest performances.( mom having us sing) for the old folks homes and for hospital patients when we were children, Portland Adventist hospital where Claudia’s mother studied nursing while she wrote the book the three sons of Noah”. Claudia would often go on the famed sidewalks singing as she walked, would eventually be discovered a spontaneous audience for the minstrel setting. The harvest ingathering is another type of outreach door to door music. Eventually in some of these ventures, comes the intuition (you say inspiration) to continue in our heritage of music and sing for change($), that meant she had to invent her own way. There is no tutelage but God, telling you that he will watch over the experiment. So gradually, she, mustering up courage(for my strength was conditioned on funds.) She built up an avenue of trust and performance among the people, Pasadena, then Glendale, and parts of Los Angeles. She had already in 1986 Sung for the City Commissioner, Wilshire Ebell theatre, Bruno’s Restaurant and Sarno’s restaurant for the opera scenes she knew from college. Elected class Chaplain S.D.A. Elementary. PAGE 116 Questions and answers: So, you want to write music? This book will get to that part where music is notation in the 32 songs or if you wish, in talking with you by email: write bishop_here@Yahoo.com for “FINALE NOTEPAD” log onto the installation registration, on the internet. Or later, because we have to establish, your endeavor and focus on your abilities, if you are a novice in particular. Those with experience will not necessarily ascribe to needing the information that follows where you want to learn to sing or play and instrument.( see other pages or table of contents). Do you have a strong harmony-theory background in high school and college? So you want to sing? Go up to the podium? (age 3 doesn.t matter) at the altar they always sings songs about God. Encouraged to sing young, is brought on by other singers with knowledge and experience, who wouldn.t be Page 117 glad, any of them, to help you start to learn, stage presence and stage decorum? Teach me reverence! Claudia loves the stories about Jesus and His love. So…she went up there and she stayed, for a life time of Altar music ministry which ultimately became Ordained work. You can too, realize your calling. Sing your best songs for the church programs select favorite hymns to start with and spiritual folk songs. Wear your best church dress and present your best foot forward for God. People dress up for parties and for friends, this suggests you dress up for God, for a good performance of music and pleasant appearance leaves a good message to the listener, that you care about the subject you are presenting, and the “PORTRAYAL” OF REVERANCE TO GOD, “…MAKES YOU AS AN ANGEL OF GOD…” II SAMUEL 14:20. She was presented with her first violin at church, that has started her back to school college days at LACC AND PCC, Community College Orchestras. Southern California, and she has played a half a dozen years, also presentations at University S.D.A. church Los Angeles, Ca and Glendale City S.D.A. Church, Glendale, Ca., sometimes college and church Co ordinate their programs. In the congregation, are many people who have sung too, and they like to hear you for the first time in your presentation. Try simple uncomplicated songs that have a clear message. Page 118 There are lots of composers of many, songs too numerous to count, one hymnal may contain over seven hundred hymns for you to learn, Claudia has memorized them from childhood and usually knows the first second and last verses, of a lot of hymns. Like the all popular, “Amazing grace…” And, “ Rock of ages…”. There are all styles that differ one from the other and much more than the plain songs we love are the more comp-licated drama of the “dark ages” stories and victory songs. Later you improve on what you offered in the song before. You learn an instrument and play that too. You call groups together and practice with them, or you are called upon to work with others who start groups of music. You take your music home and practice, Sometimes it takes long practices to make it sound right and be worth hearing, no mumbling, clear words and clear notes so the audience is not guessing the tune even when sung many times the audience has to agree on the melody of what is being presented, Also the camcorder or screen presentation should always be corrected to read the verses clearly for the joint singing, there is no mixed message or communicating another idea in the middle of the song on the screen. If you are influenced by the “quick” concert method, it won.t sound like much, a thrown together presentation is what they will get. You must be equipped to eventually record your own sounds, also receive instruction from Page 119 a qualified teacher on the enunciation of words and sounds consonants and vowels, for distinctive, clear messages. Because your stardom to the worship hour is only one hour a week. But in the heavenlies, there.ll be a lot more worth hearing, if you devote yourself to serious practice for shining example of reflecting the best music placed for God.s service, just because the song has wide appeal does not mean you personally have done a good job, and you dress code should reflect you know the master and the matter of deportment is reverent not crude to His Worship. The joking at the podium and the loud playing of chopsticks or other such playfulness do not belong in the worship hour, some jog along this path, leading others to destructive listening patterns rather than “ always reverence the space that belongs to the Lord” do not assume he enjoys your goof off attitude and jangling. Among the people. Read the book of Ezra, Nehemiah. And the 1 and 2nd chronicles. This is called musical works or music ministry. It used to be “ASAPH” at the instruments, and singers with Jeshua. Some start very early and accomplish a pleasing level of sound and presentation that appeals to a lot of church going members. Warm up exercises are not hard, you should do it every day and start about 15 minute practice. Find someone who you like in the sound of their voice, and practice that sound, a beautiful voice should be a good example if you want to sing beautifully for God. Page 120 Claudia.s grandfather, William allowed her a half hour practice in the afternoons about five thirty every day to practice the piano from the seventh grade onward. When she got to Adventist academy the dean of women had her to play for worship services in the morning or evening and occasionally, and for joint worship, she had progressed to level five on her own before she got to her first formal piano teacher in high school. This is what she tells her students!: What.s the point of all this? (see the point, in the underlined passage behind the numbered paragraph.) 1.) Select a song you like and practice it for memory so that when it is presented you know it without looking at the page. This is a commonly held view of a lot of teachers. 2.) After you have survived the first exposure of musical performance, whether for church or for school, you will probably nervously seek more songs, (consider broadening your interest and styles). Nerves, what.s that? Butterflies in your stomach! A scary feeling like your knees will give out on you. This is usually from inexperience and not all people get it all the time. 3.) If you are diligent, you will find that practice will make things go smoothly in performance, and you will feel less nervous, because you know what you are going to present. Page 121 People in the audience may help you by not pointing you out or making faces or noises to distract you to ruin you r performance, This is important too, usually people at church understand that something very important is about to be heard, and church audiences collectively place the emphasis of quiet surroundings, in their prospective. 5.) Speech is also important, you want to be able to introduce what you are singing about and be knowledgeable in the subject of song or presentation. 6.) Find an accompanist, that is a person who plays the music on an instrument while you sing. 7.) Work with them before the presentation so that you will be coordinated together. If the person does not know the instrument nor how to follow the singer or performer of instrument, then it will reflect on your part in the program. 8.) There are a lot of people in the just getting started category that will help you, but remember, much practice makes you more in demand because the type of program you give will be more polished and stand out as a better Quality then those five minute practice guys who are in a hurry to give music but not intent on presentation and content of the message brought, some of them do not know how to coordinate the song message to the message sermon hour or the text that are given in the worship hour. If you are doing minstrel work, the popular music would be what are the college curriculum each semester the most Page 122 concentrated works that season, in symphonies and in arias. While in church it is always the message of the hour. Maybe you are singing a particular doctrinal passage or message that must be emphasized in that hour. 9.) Learn to read the music as well as the words and sing along, practicing as much as you can to build your music program. Starting out, you should have atleast 12 songs that you know well and after that maybe start collecting songs so that you can build a recital program. What.s a “Recital?” This is a work of music “program” by one artist with an accompanist. A “Concert” is the Musical artistry of instrumentalists and or voices working together. 10.) The length of the program presented is important as well as the length of the musical selection, that you personally select. The program usually consists of about one hour of continuous music at length or in segments of single songs. Or you may want to be in Concert or Cantatas or Oratorios(musical works with not words spoken). You might want to write a Bible drama and present it for some particular audience. Angels: Heb 1:14 11.) You have them in prayer petition to help you in all things concerning your spiritual walk. Ministering spirits, Guard and guide you to do good. Page 123 The Holy Spirit tutors you in the scriptures and never gives bad advice or orientation. If you are evil will you get a good report? The bible instructs us how God deals with the intent of the heart and what motives lie behind our actions. If you are purging the area of your faults and making amends in songs and speeches, there should not be an alternate view expressed which would say you are not really amending anything. 12.) You can consult the bible anytime for how to do things. Songs of conviction, persuasion, the change of life, meeting first with Christ, the sinner.s plea or prayer type of music, that convicts the listen to what has been wrong and God is the difference. Who will approve or disapprove, when your simple well planned program is accepted by God.(“if God be for us, who can be against us…”Rom 8:31) 13.) Respect “Him,” and he will prove you well. 14.) Respect those who lead out and that help everyone, overall. If you are in a habit of addressing Jesus the Master when you come into the sanctuary, others may not know this is an immediate address to your prayer life, If they tag along with you or commonly want to greet you, simply tell them that you need moments to talk and pray to God before talking business of the service with others. There also is the dilemma of talking about everything “shop” which is other business that should not be in the sanctuary. Page 124 When you get to school , what is accepted has already been set at church level and you should do well if trained already in church. What is stage deportment? This is much to do with the way you enter and leave the place of performance and during the music you prepared. Walking on and off with confidence, head held steady, keeping steady vision and walking in a calm manner, neither running or sluggishly. Looking ahead just over the heads of the audience, or sitting at the instrument glancing periodically at the top of the audience. Eye contact would be transference of information, which might distract from what you are presenting. What is street singing? (see “The minstrel. segment) Street performances or street singing is a place of artist entrance and arena with an outside public as the auditorium. Parks and recreation Out doors Store fronts Business fronts. Church fronts. Page 125 What should you know to do there or why would you consider that work? This is an area of recital and concert work artistry too! Many recital groups do malls and store fronts at Christmas time. They use the same selected songs for Christmas music in church. The street minstral or a missionary will set up their own area and perform for the public who are always ready for artists in the area. When Claudia was an “ Artist in residence” at The Lutheran Chruch, I was offered singing gigs and my picture was put in the local news; “Star News” This work included singing for the Senior Center in Pasadena. At Vallejo Drive ,S.D.A. in Glendale, CA., While soloist in the choir for five years. Claudia was selected for Civic Light Opera at Glendale Civic Music Theatre for the role the Mother Abess in the”Sound of Music” production put on at Glendale College, summer of 1980, the same year Claudia was previledged to sing for the General Conference Session in Dallas, Tx. By the invitation of the World Headquarters President John Hancock. Her brother Shannon D. Goodwin also Sang, at General Conference that year. At Oakwood College Claudia was selected to be Hostess of the Radio broadcast “Opera Matinee”, introducing opera selections, to be aired on the program, in 1984. In Philadelphia, She was selected to sing for Mayors and Governors for the banquet put on by Samuel Evans in a Soirée of prestigious political persons, 1984. Page 126 At the Von Braun Center in Huntsville, She was selected to Write the fanfare for the American Negro College fund Banquet. 1984. Having been heard by world professionals because the teachers thought Claudia has a good voice, She was also accepted for recital compliment by opera Directors. But this was not her main goal, God guided her in preparation for what could be a good career, all the while she had to practice and be prepared for what might come to her as an opportunity to serve God in music. This was many years after Claudia had done other things just mention: Singing solos, Choir director, Lead singer and Doctoral recital soloist. That my experience in Oratorio work was 12 consecutive years concurrent with the other opportunities while i Traveled to San Diego and Los Angeles, (all transpired before the 1991 John Carter Report.) What is a mentor? This is a person you respect to teach or guide you in the area of your talents. You might want to do some field study and get credit for it. They might also offer a degree or decree in the area of study you wish to pursue. Why can.t I just ask God to give me the talent? Page 127 You can ask God to give you the talent, but you must use it as it is given to you and not spoil it be neglecting practice and make your grooming for your best presentation. Will I get paid for this work of street presentation? You can call this real work. Yes there is money given, and depending on how you present your self, this free lance enterprise can earn a few dollars to put to good use. I have not known anyone who makes a daily living, singing, because it is terrifically hard on the voice to subject yourself to more than an hour of music a day, outdoors and depending on the volume of songs , your voice, the weather conditions, the people that show up, type of area, you sing or choose, the average patrol of the community and other factors of emergency and preparation, you should be able to map it out for yourself. However, if it is “live” instrumental the factors change. Weather being significant in all cases. What good is being a missionary if you are a singer, why not just do that? You choose who you serve and you do as the Master shows you, if it is furtherance in school, He will lead you, (see”Lord you talk to me..” {the song) as long as you Page 128 Co operate with God he will send you a mentor, or pastors or leaders to help you, and in some cases you have to lead out on your own or with others. Be aware of the central factor of leading out while others superimpose their program over yours, if you are a novice it does not make difficulties in program planning, if you are a professional, the overlap of music presentations, styles and personalities differ and sometime do not co operate with the general purpose of your presentation or the hour or worship given. The commission Being led to do the work of the ministry is a calling from God. If you are a good musician and you are looking, solely; to be leader in church music, then use your time around those who can gear you for that role with the nominating committee. If you are hoping for a degree or decree, you have to let the Lord lead you into the proper course with the right people and asking for the placement once you have reached the stage of certain development. Sometimes it is not up to others, it is up to you, but do not force others out of the picture, nor prematurely invite them without the council of God first. What makes you an expert on this? Page 129 You have to learn to endure the exposure of your talents and that with years and people observing you, can conclude what is best for you. If you are totally ostracized, is it because what you are doing is totally unacceptable, by terms of moral or physical evidence: There are no hard and fast rules for street artists and minstrels run in our family, we do not turn down and opportunity to share our faith, though we may alter the entry to it, due to circumstances of preparation or climate. What is sharing your faith? It means you share your experience in what you know of God, to others and that by song or music presentation. You can also expand it to speech, the question then is, will time and nerve to expand in positive directions be observed? What is positive about that exposure? There is nothing negative about singing a song and cheering people up. Attracting interest in the “arts” is an old exercise of getting acquainted with others, when you expand it to “witnessing” for Christ, you can do a lot of good and help others. Why would you want to help others? Page 130 If you are in government, helping others is a community concern. When you belong to a fellowship, it has to do with soul winning; leading persons to Jesus, feeding the poor, helping the disadvantaged and if you do not raise funds, through your performance of music(singing and artistry), you can raise funds though speech, and circulars. We Know them as “literature evangelists”(this does not imply that the writer Claudia Humphrey, has sponsors in literature evangelism) Why help someone if you can.t help yourself? Many missionaries start out poor, in fact some take a vow of poverty along with fidelity and chastity. It is not a sign that they cannot help. The talent to direct help to others is the point. To be able to connect community and service in creative influences, so that good is done, and humanity benefits, is the point. Some go so fars as to get a government status of 501 c 3 , to collect funds and do their work, but the author does not suggest that is necessary. So why not let the government do that and not involve musicians? If we do not involve ourselves in goodwill to others, than we loose in our expression of faith, towards Christ,(“HE” is to help where needed.) This is a standard of faith expressed openly, to confess Christ our leader. 1 John 4:3, Romans 10:9, 2 John 2:11, 1 John 4:15 ,1 John 4:2, Hebrews 13:15, Matthew 11:25, Luke 10:21, John 9:22 Page 131 Responsibility: If people use you or mock you because you have done good to help yourself improve, or to help others, they are the ones at a loss and have no excuse for battering goodwill in action. For they add to the list of depression, violence, depravity, suicide, homicide and other crimes. When now people look for vision and hope that the world we live in can be a better place, will we reveal and publish that and how and when we were born in to it. The street ministry: “old town Pasadena” by Claudia Humphrey, started in 2001 has dwindled down to Holiday programs, the point being that anyone can start a street ministry. But the window closes to the harvest of one who for a time asked for people to join her in closure of that harvest work on the corner of de lacey and Colorado in the old town section, Pasadena California. Thank you for allowing me to be of service, My name is Claudia Humphrey, Missionary, Known as a singing evangelist since 1991, and ordained minister since 2001. Write me email: Bishop_here@Yahoo.com (THIS CONTENT LIST IS ALSO IN THE TEXT INDEX) 132 Songs for Souls a drama by Claudia Humphrey • AUTHOR *COMPOSER DRAMA 2009 • (*1976) ARE YOU CONTENTED 1Sam 30:22 • BEAUTIFUL JESUS 6 Luke 2:52 (in the drama also 2 tim 2:13) • BY THE GRACE OF God 9 Ephesians 2:8 , Luke 17:19 • COMEBACK TO THIS BACKSLIDEN HEART 24 Hosea 5:4, John 8:11 • COUNT IT ALL JOY 11 James 1:2 • DON’T PRAISE ME, PRAISE THE LORD 16 Joshua 7:19 Psalm 33:1 • EXPECT A MIRACLE 25 James 1:7 • GOD AND THE PLUCKING MAN 29 Matthew 18:9 Matthew 5:30 • HE IS MIGHTY 4 Job 36:5, Zeph. 3:17, Job 9:19 • HERE WE ARE TOGETHER 8 Proverbs 13:19 • I CAN’T WAIT 31 Heb 12:1 Psalm 37:7, Psalm 37:34 • I’M A CHILD 29 1 John 4:7, Luke 18:17 • I’M HIS FATHER HE’S MY SON 7 , Mark 1:11, John 20:17 • IN JESUS NAME 32 Job 11:13, Pr 16:1, Joel 2:13 • LET LOVE BE IN MY SONGS 2 Gal 5:6 • LORD, LORD DON’T BURY ME 12 Micah 2:10 • LORD YOU TALK TO ME 1 Hosea 5:4 • LOST FOREVER ARE MY SINS 23 Micah 7:19 • MATTHEW 11: 28 • MORE VALUE THAN SPARROWS 15 Matthew 10:31 • NURTURING FAITH 20 Ephesians 6:4 • SO MY LIFE REFLECTS 33 Ecclesiastes 5:20 • SOUND THE TRUMPET 17 Rev 10:17 • TAKE ONE MORE STEP 19 Job 11:13, Job 31:7 • TEMPTED 27 Matthew 4:1 • THEN FAITH CAME 18 Galatians 3:23, Matthew 9:28 • THESE ARE THE AVENUES 13 Isaiah 35:8 • TODAY’S HOPE TOMORROWS PEACE 22 Jeremiah 14:13 • YOU MADE YOUR DECISION 23 Joel 3:14 • YOUR SINS ARE FORGIVEN 3 Matthew 9:2, Luke 5:18, Mark 2:3 • VISIONS AND DREAMS 14 Daniel 1:17, Acts 2:17, Daniel 2:28 • WATER MY GARDEN 34 Luke 10:2 133 “songs, for souls,” THE DRAMA Cast: Protagonist________Antagonist____________ Him__________Her_________Angel________SAVIOR________Choir_____Child________Peers_______crowd GOD_____________SATAN________ 3VISIONARIES______________ Protagonist, antagonist, hero, heroine, SAVIOUR/ ANGEL. Opening scene Modern day choices out on the avenue. All kinds of people all walks of life. Her &/HIM: i’m not a mental giant, i have things i have to do and this is the way they turn out. Her/ : You don’t care about me, where do i fit in this grand scheme of yours to get things done? Him/hero: I do care, dear, but I am not content, why with all these interloping on my ideas and patents and inventions i can’t get mY foot into the door and mingle with the major league, You know, if You’re to be mY ladY, i have to be able to provide. (they come together, hold hands and gaze at each other.) 134 Angel: singing:“…are You content to see trouble, are You content to be half of a whole, are you content to listen and not to learn how your heart for the world continues to Yearn…” Savior: sings of himself ( he cannot deny himself) Beautiful Jesus look at his stature. 2 Tim. 2:13 They do not hear, they have ears to hear but they do not listen…” theY are dull with the cares of this world, everything that is before them, they must have, and the sacrificial life is scene as a person who has nothing to offer, the sufferer for my sake is viewed as an outcast and one that should not be delivered, I know they must turn to me if they will be saved, I touch upon their lives everyday, you can hear them pray, lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, and yet look at the results if they do not rest in the tie that binds them and use every possible choice.. Protagonist: sinner Lord you talk to me These are the avenues (choir) Antagonist(s) enters: this spiritual tYpe, can’t get a job. Look, they pray(smirking and laughins under his breath) 135 Why do they think people would take an interest in them? What have they to offer? No money No job no… Her?: You have faith! That is what you have, love, And you can exercise all manner of faith in everything you do. Him: yeah, Its perfectly legal (laughin) Her: quit joking, you can become anything with Your talents, God promises he will build on your gifts. Him; i don’t have time to go to church that much, i have to keep my nose to the grindstone. Saviour: scene as a vision he is mightY, he is powerful… (the song ends with Christ praying in Hebrew{you hear Aveinu Malkeinu) Angel approaches and sings (Tempted) (portions) in progress all rights reserved © Claudia Humphrey since 1976 songs for souls And the drama. 136 (Back to the she and the he) …. are You that tempted can’t You resist that must prove all to all people Through the successes obtained, whY can’t You let go of it and trust god To take over this interprise He: Because God isn’t going to do the work I am going to do it by the sweat of my brow..., She: now see there, you go claiming some Biblical text, just like that (she snaps her fingers)but do you give God the Glory for giving you that quick answer, what I am trying to say is whY don’t You fit god in to Your grand schemes and let him come out the winner? Antagonist: are You “he” the winner of the grand prize Sweapstakes milleniaum? I have a letter here For you that says you just got the highest score on entries to the national patent office and they want you to come and claim the prize. Is your name_________ what is your size Weight general description, national origin Pedigree, gender, ma, pa, and siblings? You see we need actual verifiable,irrefutable identity of all entrants to the sweapstakes. He: yes I am ___________ and(as he rattles off his identity 137 In the background can be heard petitioners Signing petitions against graft and corruption. Leader: yes this is what we have to do to beat that measure that says , all winners of the national sweapstakes get cart blanche to everything plus a political office of state and national. Child: i’m a child in jesus eYe that is what he wants me to be….” Sings entire song Then stands facing the audience, saying Usually they will believe a child, because we don’t know a lot Yet, You see, we trust just about everyone including our parents. The truth be known though, trusting in Jesus is a good teaching, i wonder when theY’ll send us A good church worker to tell us more about God. I believe in god… i just want to learn more so i can know what to do with my life. (child turns and walks away) Angel:”is not life more than meat, and the bodY.. more than raiment and the soul that hath a need…” Child kneels to pray oh god , i am just a child, i need Your help…” He: collects his winnings and moves from the area and no one hears from him. She: frustrated turns to other ways of dealing with her problems, and mostly missing him, She gathers unseemly friends. (laughter in the background, of unsavory places to be) Yeah, if You keep this up gal, You’ll be in the streets, a gambler says to her. 138 (meanwhile “he” gets a fine job as backing agent for a company selling mail order wares) in “her” town (depicted ~pantomime)”…there was a man who had an eYe, that offended him…” (unchanged bY the message of song, “she” turns Back to what she was doing.) As time goes by she cannot meet her expenses and her employment fails her, she hopes she will hear from “him” for he is the onlY one who knew her when things were not so bad. Choir: nurturing faith in Jesus She: i was telling”him” about faith long long ago, .. angel :now “she” finds that she is as guiltY as she thought he was in exercising her faith, in god’s word and promises, if she would just call upon god, and recall his promises, saY and pronounce god’s word: The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much… If we confess our sins he is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins… if with all Your heart You trulY seek me… Ye shall ever surelY find me… (angel: then sings…walking through the darkness where no light could be seen, faced with anguished mind and spirit suffering…) 139 Suddenly the scene show someone’s hands around the throat of “him” accusing him of defrauding the companY’s interest… He had used a promotional that caused harm and danger to the company employees and the promo had a song that gave the advantage to the competition. “he” : I see what i did, but i couldn’t have meant it to bring danger or harm or loss to the company The song had every advantage of winning over our losses. Protagonist: yeah but you did not place a loving interest in the whole idea and that is what is the harm, there is no love in what You did and can’t You see that this endangered everyone?, you polluted the whole program we had to win our customers, you defile the process and now we are at an all time loss, production is down and The whole face of the company has to be changed to save assets. It is our duty to tell the world about our product, we are here to serve… We have to shower our patrons with hopes that our product will not let them down. Angel and choir: Let love be in my songs. Count it all joy Here we are together Antagonist: People, people, people, how are you going to make a buck. Do you always play right into the hands of the constituent you call customer. “he” i forgive You for saYing that 140 Antagonist: me?, what have I to be forgiven for “he” You keep passing our carrots like we are the horse drawn bY the carriage. You’re a sinner just like anyone else and you have to recognize the same savior and rise and take up your bed and walk away from those filthy suggestions that we can lie cheat and steal, but veil it with flowery words and pretty commercials. “he”: sings your sins are forgiven Antagonist, my sins are forgiven, but you have not even gotten to the jury yet, wait til the judge gets a hold of You. You’ll grow up and see This life of “goodY two shoes” is a racket You’ll be ashamed… “he” returns to his home and after the doors are closed he retires to quietude saYing, but i’ll be walking into glory, glory will shine walking into glory, singing all the time… I am gonna improve my ways, with the help of God I am going to turn this commercial business around so that no one in the company goes sour. and i am gonna call on “her’ i know she has not changed to this very day. Antagonist: you better pay your bill before tomorrow or we will repossess Your house… “she”: oh please don’t do that, i am sure something will happen before the two week deadline is up…please give me the time to make up the difference, I will put in a call to a few friends to help me out of this financial bind. 141 please don’t give to me a sign of ridicule and cruelty, I am really praying about this, I am changing my ways. “she’ : Oh God, I really need your help{prays, In Jesus Name The choir sings:Matthew 11:28 Holiday break They all come home for Christmas The bells are ringing: Sound the trumpet (choir sings)….people join in Christmas time is here again. The peers: gather together for reunion. Laughing and expressing old times remember when You…. and You did….. and what a goof off you were, Yeah but you were a goody goody! that’s whY You are back in town(laugh) cause You’d get chased out of peoria illinois if You Were not a goody two shoes.{ sing here we are together to praise god…” He and she come together for a long talk and reminisce. { singing second verse here we are together. “he” if god’s work were as easY as we two getting together again, would that be something. “she” Yes, there would be no antagonist to stop 142 us(smile) but seriously, I am having a serious problem staying in my flat and paying my bills. I do not know what I am going to do, for in two weeks they are going to take everything and repossess even my furniture. You,”he” saYs” :You ? of all people, remember when You lectured me about calling on God and all,(she nods) and how is that turning out for you? , the truth is{he pauses, I am not doing good in my business, and I am due to come before a judge and jury soon. He and she sing: so my life reflects He first verse She is the mirror, looking back at him. Choir sings: by the grace of God one verse Holiday is over Back to the company grind “he” finds he has sunk to a new low to get out Of one problem he robbed to pay the other problem. The court date is set. “he” sings” come back to this back slidden heart. Just as he finishes the police arrest him and he Is taken in holding until the court date. Saviour and angel sing as he continues in prayer: Father I am your son, You have identified me in signs in the sky. You have anointed my understanding. That is why I turn these dear sweet children over to you, because of such deep love and sacrifice. They can come and be healed and forgiven, Restored and changed. ANTAGONIST AND SATAN: that’s a tall order!(giggling by imps) 143 THE ANGELS IN HEAVEN SAY SHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! BIND HIM, BIND THAT ONE, BIND OVER THERE, WE MUST SEND AID TO THESE TWO: THE FATHER SINGS: i have plants that need watering….” ”...as a babY takes its verY first step that’s the waY THAT YOU SHOULD BE WITH JESUS , JUST TO GET THAT REASSURANCE, AS YOU TAKE A STEP WITH HIM. AS A BABY You’ll hold out Your arms, when You feel a fall coming on, and You’ll take one more step with him.{ back to the OTHER SCENE ON EARTH. (“she” IS IN VISION ON HER PILLOW AS THE CHOIR ON EARTH FINISHING CHURCH SERVICE; “she” is listening at the stain glass window,”lost forever are mY sins…” theY close with todaY’s hope, tomorrow’s peace is jesus. THE SCENE CHANGES IN HER DREAM AS SHE STRUGGLES BETWEEN RIGHT AND WRONG: THE THREE VISIONARIES SING: visions and dreams. i can’t wait, lord, lord, don’t burY me in this land. the court daY she shows up to tell”him” the good news OF ANSWERED PRAYER, tHE DEFENCE ATTORNEY CAN BE HEARD(NOT SEEN) “…AND WE FIND NEW EVIDENCE YOUR HONOR, THAT HAS CLEARED THE DEFENDENCE NAME_________ AND WE THE PLAINTIFF REST. ORDER, ORDER, ORDER IN THE COURT,{ Judge is heard not seen we the jurY find “him” not guiltY 144 AND ASK THE THE NEW EVIDENCE BE BROUGHT TO TRIAL CONFICTING THE ANTAGONIST. (CAN BE HEARD, BUT NOT SEEN) THE SONGS CAN BE HEARD PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND(BY the grace of god and don’t praise me praise the lord) “she” tells him the good news AS THE JUDGE HAS FINISHED………………. THE TWO LOOK DEEP IN EACHOTHERS EYES AND SING WHEN YOU SEE ME DOIN RIGHT don’t praise me, PRAISE THE LORD PRAISE THE LORD WHEN YOU SEE ME DOIN RIGHT PRAISE THE LORD PRAISE THE LORD, PRAISE THE LORD, PRAISE THE LORD. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED GOD AND CLAUDIA HUMPHREY © 2009 IN COOPERATION WITH THE FIRST BOOK WRITTEN 1976 SONGS FOR SOULS. THIS WORK IS NOT FOR SALE! This is the end of the series, the following is to be continuing stories set up by Adventist family story contributions. THE FAMILYTHE NEGROYou are cordially invited to attend the viewing of this book by Claudia Goodwinshe is a negro, who became Claudia Ann Goodwin-Humphrey singing evangelist. All rights reserved * Series “Songs, For Souls” You are cordially invited to attend the recption of Mr.__________ to Claudia Ann Goodwinat the dining hall at University Church santa barbara at budlongevening october 1967YOU HAVE TO BE ONE! WHAT? A PART OF THE FAMILY THAT one comes FROM TO UNDERSTAND WHY we STILL CALL ourselves A NEGRO. IT IS NOT ALL ABOUT THE NEGRO SPIRITUAL BUT THAT PLAYS A MAJOR ROLL IN A LOT OF WHAT WE HAVE DONE AS MUSICIANS. It has opened the door to many opportunities and lifted the load of oppression through the use of the arts. Do you have the opportunity also to learn about the Negro American only to learn that the state of oppression that has been a great difficulty is now washed into the rebellion that means we are not called negro. I would like to write that special trip I made from birth to nowis a calling card from the Lord himself and the trips and tours on earth were just a plan that is greater then my ideals and my assumed path of needs and wants. Daddy having to go into the town, the first laundromat that he ownedand operated and because he was negro there had to be an opposition which meant there was soon to be competition. Then dad went into the city a half hour drive every day in the 50.s and was a red cap for the local train station, most of them were negro and a half a dozen of them were my uncles and grandfather. That made dad a three job person because he ran the farm and with chickens, and cows, the dogs also had to be fed and we did chores but dad was the head of it all. He built a huge round room on the east side of the house that was to be the new living room. I remember watching the caucus on the television and Adlai Stevenson was being considered a candidate for office. By the time Eisenhower was President, we were all divorced living in the city, Portland, a divided home and that house was on height street. I was now in the fourth grade and wewere taken to the Adventist school in Portland. The church picture of dad was the holy hour for Sharon Church was a negro church. Faces of the family emotionally speaking! The text index refers to real pictures in the series but in the family all you see are the emotions depicting the negro situationally, you cannot derive a real attitude because it is intended to express that moment I feel. NOTICE GOD IS IN CONTROL! •GOD •Dad MOTHER BRO 1 BRO 2•ME GRANDPA GRANDMOTHER •COUSINS SCHOOL FRIENDS TEACHER MENTOR• •(the times) •COMMUNITY AUNTS UNCLES OTHER EMOTIONSOR LIKENESS TO PARABLESARE YOU READY? I AM SO BUSY AND IN LOVE I DON’T THINK I CAN MAKE ITCAN SKATERBOARDERS COMEI CAN RELATE TO EVERYTHING YOU SAY! I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR THIS! YOU ARE CORDIALLY INVITED TO ATTEND THE WEDDING MARCH OF THE UNIVERSE, WOULD YOU PLEASE RSVPTIME FOR A CHECK UP! WHOSE GONNA BE THERE? I’M GOING IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION! HANG ON, I’LL HAVE AN ANSWER MOMENTARILY! I LIKE SO NEED TO MEET YOUR MANAGER! I NEVER GET TO DO ANYTHING! WHATS YOUR SIGN? I AM AT A LOSS FOR WORDS! IT’L BE FUN, YOU’LL LOVE IT!KIDS ARE WELCOME!I JUST NOW HEARD ABOUT IT! NO ALCOHOL INTENDED! NAN NAH… NAH NAH NAH NAH ! PLEASE, OH PLEASE! DOES CUTE WORK? I’LL BRING SACK LUNCHES! ALL FOR JESUS ALL FOR JESUS! Start in Oregon, the home of the Portland Beavers! •I am not a sport, but I do like to feel revitalized by certain activities. •When we were in elementary school it was baseball, later swimming, then jogging. •Dad was the only one of us that was real athletic looking until my brothers got•To adult life. •We lived in the country and had plenty to do as youngsters. •Growing up in private school, riding the bus to the bottom of this alcove like mountain, near piscah home. road, in Scappoose Oregon. •Portland areas, this being Multnomah County for all records. •In the early years we were bussed to St. Helens, Columbia Heights School. The old adventist School•With Mr. Roy and Mr. Wilbur. •Later to move to the house structure at the side of the road that leads to piscah home•At the base of the connecting roads that lead to St. Helens. This was Mr. Bratton.s class. •There was one year that we went to Scappoose elementary, that iswhen I wanted to be a brownie scout. • (c) since 1977 Claudia Humphrey , The Family, Songs For Souls *Series Dad was a survivor! •Dad moved to California, he had married for the second time and he and his wife were now cosmetologists. My step brother and sister were a part of the family•The frustration of not sharing was diminshed by moving in with granddaddy and grandmother. •So now the Henderson.s, and visiting cousins the Hay.s, and the Goodwin.s all had community with the grandparent house. At the top of the hill 61ststreet between Glisan and Burnside. •Anut, uncle, two brothers, mother, granddaddy, grandmother and me, in the house, but the relating was•Extended by many cultural and musical experiences with the hays. •I walked everyday to the local Adventist school in Portland PUA,and attended there from fourth to eight grade. Mr. Thorman was my teacher two years in a row, having decided to help the same class in its following year. I was told if I did well scholastically I could make Valdictorian, and I determined to memorize everything for the tests that would show readiness. •I made class chaplain in the eight grade. The civil rights movements were not focused on by the•School teachings and at home we were strivers, so as not to notice or stand out, it is unusual that•The head of our house was a red cap and a shoe shine boy. That was Grandpa. He was a freedom idealist and he set me free to play the piano one half hour before the news every day. •This changed my life and focus to music permanently. I thank Godfor grandpa. Now I was able to make•Strides and eye level with my peers and at graduation I was the soloist for the Baccalaureate-Commencement, singing the sermon “The Lord.s Prayer,”though I was not the sermon of the hour. I knew that God had•Something special for me. The whole FAMILY was there except Daddy! •I later experienced the same feelings of being left out when I too was divorced and at distance with my own children. Somehow daddy and I were to come together and heal those times. Expectations•I thought people lived on and on. There were times when to come together as family only meant I, Claudia, was to join with a sick member of the family. While in academy when i could have lost myjob at the school laundry( a choice like dad, who cared about me), •I went to see my sick mother, with the ultimatum of I might not have a job when I came back, yet I had held down the laundry job to defray the academy expenses which to that time were not met. Then for a youngster from age 13 to 16 I worked summer and all year long after classes. For 50cents and hour. •The academy was co-educational, but no fraternizing•And if negro, there was me and my two brothers my Freshman year, and my two female cousins, my Sophomore years, when, Brothers and cousins were seniors, there would be no dating. •I played the piano for worship in the girl’s dormitory and some in the main auditorium worship. •My brothers and I always sang trios. “The Goodwin kids” AFFECTS: DIALOGUE BOX. what was there to feel, and did the emotion cause or affect anyone else? If I was to influence anyone about life, as a Christian, being a negro was a great responsibility. I would have to carry it well, could I do that and what would be the outcome over the years, as a minstrel, as a soloist, as a missionary? When people saw that I was poor, they would say you can’t help anyone if you can’t help yourself. YET in reality, I could help by my actions as a singer and a minister to transcend the hatred I also felt as being poor, negro, singer, evangelist, missionary; they were all there in me in my songs for Jesus Christ. •When the “Affects “of civil rights and negro spiritual•Are not known. •When Medgar Evers was attacked•There was negligence which show risked lives of•Generations of civil rights•And the martyrdom is evident•Freedom-civil rights, Promised in the declaration of independence•Cannot be pre determined by the givers•The Negros sang the story and hopes•When called names this was the haters voice, it was brutal, stoked fires of our freedoms. •The articles to support the news of events quoted here•Are: in the World Almanac. •The ones that were not guilty fought for freedom as the songs continued to ring out. •Emmitt was killed by bludgeoning, when he was not giving a whitewoman respect in the•Negro step back and bow. •Addressing courtesy was vital in those times. •The taboos of centuries were upon the oppressed songs•For colored only•Singing it was the “no admittance “feelings, which was part of the rebellion •an eternal shutout is, what it seemed to be. •Coral Obrien took Emmitt to the remote shack and killed him•These atrocities and animosities did not touch the flesh of allnegroes•It touched and penetrated to the heart of their spirit. •While other cultures were punished for breaking the law•Negroes were punished for the color of their skin. •This was a hate I personally could not stomach or ignore, •Yet It was also not touching my flesh or the flesh those, around me. •It was what I saw happened to others in my beloved nation, •And I believe should come to an end. •But in spirit, I knew the Golden Gleam of God was still our in spirit. •“…Piercing through this night of gloom..” •Honor ~ Suffering ~ Is heard as a redemptive spirit in the negro spiritual•Medgar Evers was a volunteer WW II army, even so after that ,was not •able to register to vote. •I saw as same struggle to get work from 1984 to 2007. •When I retired from the ministry, I was still self employed and donations •paved my way through missionary work, •Though this to me was not stamped by the words negro struggles, nor were any•words spoken that identified my struggle, yet the spirit of the rejection•amounts to the same and in some cases where you have no home When incompletion happens, I continue to build on my evidence of life. Ex- periences. * (all caps occur in the book are sighted problems of the writer.) •Or location, no continuing city, very much a part of the negro experience. •When I say negro, I consider myself not a part of the black rebellion, that voids those songs of experience. •As an American negro I can never be African culture, nor black in•The deepest since. For the American culture is exactly what it gave to me. •A separation, ostrasation(exile), no documentation, voice or vote to•claim rights to the struggle we know as homeless., is still the plight existing•Racially charged songs are not the spiritual, it was always the•song of plea’and hope of charges, redeemer that saves. •The abundance of cultural imagery. •The black man embraced Christ. •*ALL CAPS FOR EASY READING. •IN 1963 I WAS AT LA HIGH SCHOOL WHILE NEGROES WERE IN JACKSON ,MISSISSIPPI•FOR THE WOOLWORTH FOUNTAIN THEY COULD NOT ORDER FOOD. •JUNE 12 JFK TALKS: •STATE WE “EXACT THE FAIRENESS LAWS”WHILE WE”.. HAVE CONSTITUTIONAL COLOR BLINDNESS…” •FOR I.E. NAACP LEADER MEDGAR EVERS WAS SHOT. •MARCH IN 1963 AUGUST THE 28TH•THEY SING WE SHALL OVERCOME. •YOU CAN FIND THAT SONG IN A HYMNAL NOW! •BYRON DAYLABECKWITH. •SHOT MEDGAR EVERS. •CHRISTIAN NEGROS WERE STRIVING TO GET ALONG IN THEIR•COMMUNITES AND TRYING TO STAY OFF THE BREAD LINES OF THE POOR FROM THE DEPRESSION. •MY GRANDFATHER WAS A SHOE SHINE BOY WHO LIVE AT•THE TOP OF THE HILL BETWEEN GLISAN AND BURNSIDE.IN PORTLAND, OREGON.WHEN I WAS GROWING UP, I WAS “POOR BLACK FOLKS…RICH” •DIVORCE DID NOT CHANGE MY NEGRO STATUS, IT ONLY CHANGED•MY GEOGRAPHY. •IN 1989 I WAS ALREADY DIVORCED, WHILE THEY BROUGHT BECKWITH BACKTO COURT AND THE SOVERIEGNTY COMMISSION WITH THE JERRY MITCHELL NEWS•JUDICIAL PROCESS WAS FOUND GUILTY DUE TO INTERFERENCE•WITH THAT PROCESS. BOBBY DELAUDED 25 YEARS AFTER HE WAS THE SLAYER, WAS BROUGHT TO TRIAL, 1993•THE 3RD TRIAL FOR BECKWITH, WHEN THEY FOUND HIM GUILTY. •SCANTY DETAILS FROM THE WORLD ALMANAC GIVES YOU CHILLS•WHEN YOU REALIZE YOU ARE A PART OF THAT AGE THAT PRODUCED•THE KILLERS OF PEOPLE WITH BLACK SKIN. Meditate on what you have caused, pray about that , stimulate conversation that leads to repentance, a sorrow for sins, watch, for some call sins that are not your sin. •WHEN I HAVE CAUSED HIM TO SERVE IN MY SING________ •EVEN THOUGH I MAKE A JOYFUL NOISE•WHEN DID I POLLUTE•O LORD FORGIVE! •WHEN DID I DEFILE•OH LORD FORGIVE! •AND HEAR THIS SINNER PRAY•AS DID MY FELLOWS•SINNER PLEASE DON’T LET THIS HARVEST PASS AND DIE AND LOOSE YOUR SOUL AT LAST. •Some songs speak of unrest•Some songs stir to unrest•Some songs set you on a course of determination in words and sounds•WHEN WE PURGE OUT THE OLD AND BRING IN THE NEW•FOES THAT REPRESENT TO YOU THAT GOD IS AS COMMON AS SINFUL MAN•DO WE HERE MAKE HIM SERVE US IN SIN? •WHAT CAUSES ANOTHER MAN TO SIN•GEN 3:12, GEN3:13•WHAT CAUSES ME TO SIN•JAMES 1:14•WHAT CAUSES GOD TO SERVE SIN WITH US•ISA 43:24•I hate your solemn assemblies and your feasts! •The LORD says. •I say Dear Lord, I am truly sorry that I do not meet the standard•For you, but I seek to know and to raise my standards to please you, through Jesus•Christ Our Lord. Amen. •BILL BAXLEY ATTORNEY GENERAL INVESTIGATED THIS.UNTIL•1977 NOV 18 CONVICTION OF R CHAMBERS WHO DIED IN JAIL 1985•SPIRITUAL SPEAK OF THE ATROCITIES WITHOUT TOUCHING THE FLESH OF THE•WHITE RACE SONGS OF HATE DO NOT FINALIZE THE DIRECTION OF WROTNGS DONE•BUT NEGRO SPIRITUALS TOUCH THE SPIRIT OF CONVICTION AND AWAKEN Collect what you know and tell only that, uif it is who said what, when you weren’t there, it avails nothing, that is the story of my life. •AND INCITE SOME ACTION IF ONLY•AT FIRST YOU SEE THE SPARKLE IN THE EYE OF ANY NEGRO OPPONENT. •I MADE 50CENTS AN HOUR IN ACADEMY TO PAY MY TUITION. •NOBODY KNOWS THE TROUBLE I SEE•SINNER PLEASE ON’T LET THIS HARVEST PASS•SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE A MOTHERLESS CHILD•HERE WERE SONGS THAT COULD TELL OTHERS•WHAT I FELT AS I GREW UP IN A DIVORCED FAMILY•AND IN A SECLUDED WAY OF LIFE. •JAMES CHENY NEGRO ACT ON HIS BELIEFS•JOHN LEWIS’S STRUGGLE FOR REGISTER TO VOTE•TO LOVE NEGROES WAS A THING THAT WOULD GO AGAINST YOU. •SAM BOWERS•BILL REY PITTS•1964 THE PHILADLPHIA CHURCH•3 MEN WERE ORDER SHOT•PHILADELPHIA, MISSISSIPPI•CIVIL RIGHTS ACTIVISTS WERE NOT WHO I WOULD SEEK IN MY JOBLESSNESS, •I HAD SUNG FOR MAYORS AND GOVERNORS, I HAD NOT BEEN EXCLUDED FROM USING MY EXCELLENT WORK. I WOULD NOW SING THE SPIRITUAL IN EVERY SONG I SANG BECAUSE WHETHER THIS MISSIONARY WORK “AIRS”OUT OF OPPRESSION OF POVERTY OR RACE I STILL HAVE SPIRIT. •DIRECTIONS FOR THE WRITER Pray often, pray without ceasing! •A SONG OFFERING•ALL VOCAL CONCERT AND RECITAL MUSIC•1.) SELECT HYMN AND PRING PAGE’ •2. MAKE A CD OR TAPE•IN THIS CASE DO NOT MAKE A CD BUT MAKE A RECORDED SONG FOLDER•ON JUST SING. •3. OFFER THE TWO AS AN ITEM FOR BOOK STORE. •NOTE•REPEATED TAPES OF INSTRUMENTALS AND VOCALS•REHEARSALS BECAUSE NO TIME TO COLLECT DATA OR CATALOGUE. •TRYING TO STRETCH IDEA FOR A RELEASE. •WHAT MUSIC MAKES ME FEEL•LIKE TYPES OF GOOD BEING FED IN OUR HARMONIC SPIRIT. •I.E. CLEAN•DIRTY•EMPTY•SEARCHING•FULL•UNSATISFIED•CAN THIS WORK RELATE TO: •THE TIMES AND NOT CROSS THE BARRIERS, WHEN NO MINISTER•WILL SAY CLEAN AND UNCLEAN. FOR SERVICE AND DISTRIBUTION. •SINCE THERE IS NOTHING NEW UNDER THE SUN. CAN WE SAY•AARON USED ONE TYPE AND MOSES USED THE OTHER•AND WHO IS ON THE LORD’S SIDE IN ONE STYLE OR ANOTHER•SINCE WE ARE NOT TO FOLLOW THE WAYS OF BAAL•JAZZY NO JAZZY SWING AND DANCE. WHERE IS THE LINE CLEAR•TO STAND OR IS IT ALL NOW SHADDY AND NOT SOUNDING LIKE THE•CHURCH., THEN AND NOW HOW WILL WE KNOW THE TRUE SHEPHERD AND BISHOP OF OUR SOULS. •THE BEAT IS NOT THE POINT THE POINT IS REVERENCE TO GOD AND•HOW DOES THE MUSIC REFLECTS THAT WE BELIEVE IN GOD AND ARE NOT•MOCKING HIM OR OFFENDING HIM BY IRREVERENCE AND DISPLAYAL. •IS BAAL AN EXPRESSIONOF OUR GENERATIONS•INFILTRATION IS USE WITHOUT PERMITS•SUGGESTION: Eternal works in progress! •THE WAY TO OFFER BOTH IS USE ONE AS SAMPLE OF CLEAN THE OTHER ASFOR UNCLEAN. •THIS CONTROVERSY CLEAN AND UNCELAN OLD AND NEW GNERATION IS THAT A BLANKET ACCEPTANCE? •TEACHING WHAT ASAPH TAUGHT PURIM AND PURITY•COLLECT FOR PURITY•READINESS•CONSECRATION•DEVOTION•HOLINESS •REVERENCE•OR•OPPOSING GOD•SAMPLES OF EVILS OR MARGINAL WORK SOUNDS LIKE THE WORLD, EVN EXPERIMENTATION WHAT IS GOD CLEANSING THE SANCUARY FROM? •THE POPULAR HIT ARIST IS SINGING TO THEIR LOVER AND THAT LOVER IS LEWDNESS AND EVERY EVIL ACT. •I F O UR SPIRIT IS AT WAR DOES THE MUSIC BRING THAT OUT? •AS WELL AS PEACE, CONVICTION, SORROW, REPENTANCE •REBELLION????(THE SIN OF WITHCRAFT) •EXPERIENCE IS GIVING THE BOOT FOR POPULAR AND WORLDY IDEAS•WHERE MUSIC SHOULD BE SHOWN FOR ALL IT VAMPS, HURRIES,AND SKELETONS. •MY SINGING MUSIC AND MUSICAL OFFERINGS WAS COPIED, WAS SHOVED, MISTREATED, HURT, ALSO MOCKED, FURTHERED, SMASHED, CONQURED, VICTORIOUS. •THIS MADE ME MOVE IN ANY DIRECTION WHERE REJECTION EXISTED, SINCE I WOULD NOT QUIT THE MUSIC. •MY IDEALS ARE STRICKTER THEN MY “USES’SOME OF THAT IS BECAUSE YOU WOULDN’T GIVE ME MY RIGHTS OF PASSAGE AND AUDIENCE. •THAT ORDAINED MINISTERS SHOULD HAVE! AND I FOUND SOME WOULD LIE THERE IS NO ORDINATION OR RESPECT TO MY PASTORING THE STREET CONGREGATIONS, OR CONVALESCENT MINISTRY., IT WAS TREATED AS A JOKE, AND THE JOKE WAS ON ME. •SOME OF THE LO SCALE HI SCALE MUSIC CONTENT AND QUALITY COME FROM HAINGING IN FOR ANY FINISHED PRODUCT, BECAUSE OF SO MANY CIRIUMSTANCES IN SPIRIT TO COMPLETE A WORK. •WATCHING FOR OBVIOUS REBELLION AND WITHCRAFT IN MUSIC. •WHY CERTAIN MUSIC KEEPS SOUL UNSATISFIED AND AT UNREST•WHEN IT IS PERFECT THE ANGEL OF THE LORD HAS VISITED •IS THIS THEN WHEN GOD HATES MY SOLEMN FEASTS AND ASSEMBLIES.? (THE REBELLIOUS SOUNDS OR THE ATTITUDE OF INDIFFERENCE?) •WHEN I HAVE CAUSED HIM TO SERVE IN MY SING________ •EVEN THOUGHI MAKE A JOYFUL NOISE///WHEN DID I POLLUTE///? •O LORD FORGIVE•WHEN DID I DEFILE///? I never knew you, is a hard statement to hear, if the Lord says depart from me …”ye workers of iniquity…”IT IS THEN, you feel judgment! •OH LORD FORGIVE. •AND HEAR THIS SINNER PRAY•AS DID MY FELLOWS•SINNER PLEASE DON’T LET THIS HARVEST PASS AND DIE AND LOOSE YOUR SOUL AT LAST. •Some songs speak of unrest•Some songs stir to unrest•Some songs set you on a course of determination in words and sounds•WHEN WE PURGE OUT THE OLD AND BRING IN THE NEW•FOES THAT REPRESENT TO YOU•GOD IS AS COMMON AS SINFUL MAN•DO WE HERE MAKE HIM SERVE US IN SIN? •WHAT CAUSES ANOTHER MAN TO SIN GEN 3:12, GEN3:13•WHAT CASES ME TO SIN JAMES 1:14•WHAT CAUSES GOD TO SERVE SIN WITH US ISA 43:24•I hate your solemn assemblies and your feasts! The lord says. •I say Dear Lord, I am truly sorry that I do not meet the standard•For you, but I seek to know and to raise my standards to please you, through Jesus•Christ Our Lord. Amen.

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